One of Those Days....
Fuck
fuck fuck why is this day so messed up? How did it happen this
way? why? why? How did it happen this way? It intentionally hurt
people with my words. I hurt my best friend-my best friend for 4
years. With that I need to make some apologizes:
Jen- I'm so sorry for yelling hurful words in your direction when i know you were trying to help me with my life. I love you i hope you know that and what I said was out of anger...I didn't mean anything I've said.
Nick- I don't know things are the way they are now. I don't know what to do. But i know that i still want you as a friend. I wish something have never been said and I wish i knew what to do about it. i hope you know that and think about it before you do anything rash.
I wish this has never been started. I wish i would have kept my mouth shut. Angry words would not have been said, hurt feelings, doubts and guilt... If words have a way of being taken back, of jumping back into your mouth before you spoke it maybe this would never have been. Today i think i lost a friend whom I've only known for more then two months. Jamie lost a friend he has known for eight years.... Someone always says it is useless to speak about past regrets or what would have happened if I did this....what we could have done and didn't do... but today I might as well bite my tongue back and keep it in the back of my throat, swallow the responsibility slowly building in my throat and accept it for what it is.
Jen- I'm so sorry for yelling hurful words in your direction when i know you were trying to help me with my life. I love you i hope you know that and what I said was out of anger...I didn't mean anything I've said.
Nick- I don't know things are the way they are now. I don't know what to do. But i know that i still want you as a friend. I wish something have never been said and I wish i knew what to do about it. i hope you know that and think about it before you do anything rash.
I wish this has never been started. I wish i would have kept my mouth shut. Angry words would not have been said, hurt feelings, doubts and guilt... If words have a way of being taken back, of jumping back into your mouth before you spoke it maybe this would never have been. Today i think i lost a friend whom I've only known for more then two months. Jamie lost a friend he has known for eight years.... Someone always says it is useless to speak about past regrets or what would have happened if I did this....what we could have done and didn't do... but today I might as well bite my tongue back and keep it in the back of my throat, swallow the responsibility slowly building in my throat and accept it for what it is.