I really suck at this.
So a few posts back I mentioned a guy that I was interested in. I tried to get to know him more even got his number, and mail address. I found out he really likes photography and art and a few other things that made me like him even more. Well, last night I was talking to one of our friends and he managed to figure out who I liked. To bad he had bad news for me, since the guy I`m interested in is head over heels for another girl.
Even though inside my heart dropped, outside I just kept kept smiling saying 「that`s okay」. Really that`s okay that he is head over heels for another girl, I mean I thought that it was cute even if I don`t know who the girl is. Our friend told me he let me know what will happen in a week, so it sounds like he`s going to confess or something. I hope that his feelings are returned, I really do. Even though I`m really disappointed that he`s all ready interested in someone else doesn`t mean I don`t wish him the best.
And this is where I say I suck at love. I really do. The first time I actually went for it, I was led on and rejected. Second attempt played it more cautious and found out he had a girlfriend all ready (which I am happy for, he`s such a sweet heart and he seems to love her to pieces) and this is my third attempt which hasn`t turned out well.
I`m 21 years old, turning 22 this year and I haven`t been a relationship. I`m getting to the point where I don`t know if I can say I`m proud to have lasted this long. Because as I get older I feel like no one is ever interested in me and never will be.