grrr.....
ok so i'm a little miffed. i'm not pissed, i'm not angry, i'm just a little put off. sometimes guys can be total assholes, and sometimes they just do things that make you mad but you still know that underneath that they're still good. well granted i don't have the rights to really bitch about boys, i think Claire has all the rights in the world since her boyfriend can be a royal asshole sometimes. but i still want to bitch just a little because i know it will make me feel better in the long run and probably divert my upset away from Zach who probably doesn't deserve it since he has no idea he did wrong just because he's a guy like that. now i know Zach and i haven't even been together a week and to be honest things are going pretty well so i can't really complain that much. although it does seem like i'm doing a lot of the work in organizing us getting together, but i think that is partially due to the fact that my work schedule is all over the place and i'm usually trying to fit Zach time in wherever i can. but anyway, the reason for my little tiff is that i IMed Zach today because i saw that he was online and didn't have an away up. and he responds ever so slowly with one word answers which leads me to the conclusion that he must be busy. so i ask him and he says "yeah", typical one word guy answer, and i told him i just wanted to say hi and that i guess i would have to talk to him later and i get "yeah later" which for some reason hit me just right to set me off a little so i say bye and get a bye in return and that's the end of that. not more than 5 words out of him and i'm sitting here a little ticked that he was so short with me. i know i probably shouldn't be, i know it's hard to tell emotion on IM and he probably was right in the middle of doing something for class or who knows, but it just set me off a little.
now i know he's getting ready for finals next week, and he's a CA (RA basically) and he has a lot of friends. but the problem here is that most of his friends are girls. i'd say about 95%. and i'm trying not to be the jealous girlfriend and i know i can trust him to behave himself and not do anything to jeopardize our relationship because he's a good guy like that but the real reason for my jealousy is that they get to see him and hang out with him a lot more than i do. they just have to walk up to his room and plop down on the couch and there you go. me, i'm at work and i'm starting class next week and i'm going to be driving all over the great state of VT and parts of NH for the next 15 weeks while trying to make a relationship work. so i'm just a little bit jealous and angry and i KNOW i shouldn't be, but i'm a girl and i am. so when i call him or IM him and he says he's busy and i can clearly hear other girls and people in the background of his phone i just get a little sad inside that he's hanging out with his friends and i'm stuck at work on my break trying to talk to him and he's too busy.
now i'm not saying i'm one of those girlfriends that has to speak to him every day, it would be nice but i know it's not possible. but a call every now and then would be good. an IM when he's free, and he's been pretty good about it, but it just seems like every time i try to return the favor, he's busy. it's not like i can read his mind and know that he's with friends or that he's doing a paper or anything like that, so i'm figuring maybe i'll leave it up to him for a while to keep the contact going and see how it goes. hopefully it won't end up like Mike again where i don't hear from him for three months straight. then i'd REALLY be pissed. but enough bitching i guess, i need to finish getting ready for work and then tomorrow is my first day of classes... ugh. i already hate how this summer is going and it hasn't even really started yet.
BLAH!!
*A*
now i know he's getting ready for finals next week, and he's a CA (RA basically) and he has a lot of friends. but the problem here is that most of his friends are girls. i'd say about 95%. and i'm trying not to be the jealous girlfriend and i know i can trust him to behave himself and not do anything to jeopardize our relationship because he's a good guy like that but the real reason for my jealousy is that they get to see him and hang out with him a lot more than i do. they just have to walk up to his room and plop down on the couch and there you go. me, i'm at work and i'm starting class next week and i'm going to be driving all over the great state of VT and parts of NH for the next 15 weeks while trying to make a relationship work. so i'm just a little bit jealous and angry and i KNOW i shouldn't be, but i'm a girl and i am. so when i call him or IM him and he says he's busy and i can clearly hear other girls and people in the background of his phone i just get a little sad inside that he's hanging out with his friends and i'm stuck at work on my break trying to talk to him and he's too busy.
now i'm not saying i'm one of those girlfriends that has to speak to him every day, it would be nice but i know it's not possible. but a call every now and then would be good. an IM when he's free, and he's been pretty good about it, but it just seems like every time i try to return the favor, he's busy. it's not like i can read his mind and know that he's with friends or that he's doing a paper or anything like that, so i'm figuring maybe i'll leave it up to him for a while to keep the contact going and see how it goes. hopefully it won't end up like Mike again where i don't hear from him for three months straight. then i'd REALLY be pissed. but enough bitching i guess, i need to finish getting ready for work and then tomorrow is my first day of classes... ugh. i already hate how this summer is going and it hasn't even really started yet.
BLAH!!
*A*