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i really don't know how to explain everything thats been going on lately.
and honestly i don't want to.
there's enough drama.
basically, I thought i could stop the habit.....i can't.
i want it...i've been told i deserve it....so why do i have a feeling i won't....but then why do i feel like i will?
i watched the new MCR vid.
i feel as though someone ripped out a part of who I am. I feel like i've lost what saved me. I want Black Parade to have the same effect that Revenge had on me. So i'm going to listne to their song and watch the vid and make a shirt in honor of them......to convice myself...mainly because i don't know how i could go on without that rock.
i'm so fucked up. i'm really sorry.
however, i can be so happy sometimes....really lately. things can be really good.....or like shit.
and honestly i don't want to.
there's enough drama.
basically, I thought i could stop the habit.....i can't.
i want it...i've been told i deserve it....so why do i have a feeling i won't....but then why do i feel like i will?
i watched the new MCR vid.
i feel as though someone ripped out a part of who I am. I feel like i've lost what saved me. I want Black Parade to have the same effect that Revenge had on me. So i'm going to listne to their song and watch the vid and make a shirt in honor of them......to convice myself...mainly because i don't know how i could go on without that rock.
i'm so fucked up. i'm really sorry.
however, i can be so happy sometimes....really lately. things can be really good.....or like shit.