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[lilyditroistone]

Why do guys have to be so difficult, I just don't understand it. I have this guy friend named Josh (he's like 3 years older than me). I've known of him since we were kids and we've been friends since I was a teenager. Way back in the day I use to have a MAJOR crush on him, off and on for a couple years I guess it was. He told me he would never date me (oh, he came up w/ some stupid excuse) and that the reason he never called me was because he didn't want me to get the wrong idea (although we still hung out quite a bit), which was understandable b/c I probably would've gotten the wrong idea. Well, that was years ago and still to this day he won't pick the phone up and call me. When we talk on-line he always asks me to come hang out with him at his house. And when I see him he tells me that he misses me and that he wishes I would come by more often (because sometimes it's 6 months between visits). Well, I went to his house last night for the first time since Christmas. When I walked in he hugged me and told me that I smelled good (aww, that's nice). Well, we hung out for a couple hours then J-Hart came by and the 3 of us sat around and caught up on things. When I left I bent down to hug Josh and he was like "Stop by more often" and I was like, "Yeah right", then I hugged J-Hart and left. Well, on my way home I called Beth and ranted about the fact that Josh tells me how much he misses me and wants me to come hang out with him but he won't ever call me, I always have to contact him first (even if it's been a few months since I've talked to him, he STILL won't call), and that I felt like it was a one-sided friendship, even though he says different. Well, she asked me if I've ever told him how I felt and I told her no, b/c it would be pointless. So, when I got home, I got on-line and talked to him about it. I asked him if he realized that we have nothing in common and of course he said he realizes that. So I asked him why we get along so good and he says it's b/c opposites attract, yada yada... Well, then I got to the part about him always saying he misses me and how he wants me to come spend time with him more than I do, and I asked him why he never calls me and is like, "Lydia, what the hell, why I haven't I seen you in forever". Well, he felt kind of ashamed of himself and once again he said he really wants to see me more. At that I told him if he wants to see me more, HE needs to make an effort at this friendship, b/c I'm tired of being the one to do everything. So, he said he agreed and that he would try harder! So, that's how it ended. I printed the conversation so that if ever wonders why we haven't talked in a while, I can show him what the deal was!! So, maybe we'll become better friends now! I dont' know, I guess I'll find out eventually.
Sorry, I just had to rant about guys being retarded!! Thanks for listening!