Shit happens, especially to me....
I guess if a person never had a place, they can't be replaced right? Yea, that's the only logical thing I have been able to come up with.
It's official, my life sucks. If I wanted to be this miserable I would've stayed in Florala. I thought things would get better when I moved back, that I would have a reason to be happy. All reasons are gone now, I might as well move back to that horrible place and be miserable there, where at least I would have my parents, since I don't have anybody here. There's a couple people here that I think it would hurt, if I left. But by this summer, I might not be able to be near them, b/c they'll be near another person, a person I don't think I could be near if my life depended on it. It hurts so bad, a hurt that I can't describe, the worst hurt i've ever felt. I feel betrayed, I feel like i've been lied to for way to long, I feel like that past 8 years have had no meaning, that it was all make-believe. I'm tired of make-believe, I just want people to tell me like it REALLY is, please don't let me believe something that never was and never will be, something that never existed.
I hope things in my life will get better, but I'm not sure if it will, b/c I've lost one of the most important things in my life, that can never be replaced, no matter how hard I try to get over it, I won't, 8 years worth of things is to much to just get over.
It's official, my life sucks. If I wanted to be this miserable I would've stayed in Florala. I thought things would get better when I moved back, that I would have a reason to be happy. All reasons are gone now, I might as well move back to that horrible place and be miserable there, where at least I would have my parents, since I don't have anybody here. There's a couple people here that I think it would hurt, if I left. But by this summer, I might not be able to be near them, b/c they'll be near another person, a person I don't think I could be near if my life depended on it. It hurts so bad, a hurt that I can't describe, the worst hurt i've ever felt. I feel betrayed, I feel like i've been lied to for way to long, I feel like that past 8 years have had no meaning, that it was all make-believe. I'm tired of make-believe, I just want people to tell me like it REALLY is, please don't let me believe something that never was and never will be, something that never existed.
I hope things in my life will get better, but I'm not sure if it will, b/c I've lost one of the most important things in my life, that can never be replaced, no matter how hard I try to get over it, I won't, 8 years worth of things is to much to just get over.