Oct 01, 2005 20:28
has died tonite...
it feels like my world has shifted so fast and so hard and i'm left out on my ass again...
i hate alcohol and everything it does, the affects...the causes...half a bottle of jim beam and a safe drive home..why, if you love someone would you put them in that postition..."i'm not that drunk..."
FUCK YOU!!! Fuck you and all your fucking friends and everything they stand for...
(climb a mountain and with all the breathe in my lungs, scream)
I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL!! EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU!! I WISH YOU ALL KNEW THE PAIN YOU CAUSED ME...YOU'VE RUiNED EVERYTHING...
AND WHY, IF YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND...WHY WON'T YOU FUCKING STAY WITH ME TONITE, TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE NAD YOU'LL NEVER DO IT AGAIN CAUSE MY FUCKING HEART IS BREAKING AND I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE...YOUR A DRUNK...AND I FUCKIN LOVE YOU..
theres still time to make this right, if you come home tonite...
all my anger shot into words when all i want to do is kill...not satisfied..
maybe i should just let it go but i can't...
it hurts me and it scares me and YOU DON'T FUCKIN CARE!!
why didn't you stay with me last nite..