arg

[lilybaby666]

went to alie's party last night...a lot of old guys were looking at me and it was gross. a 16 year old was hitting on me the whole...rob cant dance at all, although he gets a little better when he's drunk. we didnt get home till 5 am.

my father was a dick all day today. he called me a ton of names and told me that i might as well not be living here because i dont do anything worthwhile anyway. because thats cool. he was screaming all day, calling me a bitch and everything. i know that he doesnt feel well at all and is really scared about the surgery, but its like he has no consideration for my feelings. he cant yell at anyone else, so he yells at me. because its easier that way. i have been crying all day. he got me to the point where i started screaming at him and then my grandfather yelled at me for raising my voice at my sick father. im sick of it. finally my mom came home from work and comforted me. i was so close to not coming home tonight. it makes me so mad when he does this. like my feelings dont matter, like im not losing my father...i only came home because my mom begged me to...i dont want to worry or hurt her anymore