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I just did a pretty naughty thing. See, I sent an e-card to my husband last night, telling him how much I love him and the like. I set it to send me a pick-up confirmation email, but I never got it and I was really looking forward to it. So, I looked into his email and saw that it was deleted. In the trash and my heart broke a little. This is just over 24 hours after he spent an hour telling me how much he loves me and how much I've made his life better. That I've been the one person he's been looking for all his life. I feel like a complete ass for swallowing the line. I believe him when he tells me that I'm beautiful, even though I'm still carrying baby weight and all. I believed everything he said last night about needing me and loving me and how we were each other's soul mates. I don't know why I looked, I know better than to do such things, but I just couldn't resist the urge to see if he'd gotten it and just hadn't checked his email in awhile and that's why I hadn't gotten the pick-up email. I wish I could take back the last 20 minutes or so and not have done what I did. But I can't and I'll have to deal with my inner demons about doing something I shouldn't have. But now, do I ask him about getting it or do I leave well enough alone? This man could lie to me and I'd never know it, he's that good of a liar. And like I've said before here, how can I trust a man who says lying isn't wrong because it isn't written in the Bible. This is a guy that was raised in a very Christian household. And did he even read the letter that I wrote to him last week, or did he say he read it only because I asked him about it when I got no response from it? Now I'm plagued with all the question and no answers. Do I even want answers?