i was only trying to be optimistic
these few days,
was work work work, & a few hours of worthless tv. and meaningless phone conversations, mix with a bit of family drama .same old shit
its chilled .
hectic i started off a perfectly fine week, umm my grades are goign way up and my art skills have inproved
but, always something goes wrong
and then i had my donwfall.
i think that once i loose all feelings and caring for a person..i just hide myself away.its what i do, the only thing i can do..for now those people are only goign to be able to see a despersonalized, apathetic bitch.
which is what at aim for at times.
as nice i may look we all have our downfalls and i thhnk thats mine.
i push awya to soon before even the numbness starts to kick in.
because ...i rather feel regret and sadness than to feel nothing at all
because i hate feeling empty and numb.
its the worst state to be.
so now
i have a rush of emotions.
happy, apathetic, hated and .yes very much sad.
was work work work, & a few hours of worthless tv. and meaningless phone conversations, mix with a bit of family drama .same old shit
its chilled .
hectic i started off a perfectly fine week, umm my grades are goign way up and my art skills have inproved
but, always something goes wrong
and then i had my donwfall.
i think that once i loose all feelings and caring for a person..i just hide myself away.its what i do, the only thing i can do..for now those people are only goign to be able to see a despersonalized, apathetic bitch.
which is what at aim for at times.
as nice i may look we all have our downfalls and i thhnk thats mine.
i push awya to soon before even the numbness starts to kick in.
because ...i rather feel regret and sadness than to feel nothing at all
because i hate feeling empty and numb.
its the worst state to be.
so now
i have a rush of emotions.
happy, apathetic, hated and .yes very much sad.