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Was asked out by Vaughn.
Too busy to see him, had to turn him down.
Went bowling with old HS friends.
Applied temporary tattoo to Nate with my tongue.
Spent another wonderful night with oldest boy.
Asked oldest boy about his expectations.
Am no less confused about above than was previously.
Spent time with Sarah.
Sarah likes boy who bruised my lip during make-out.
Sarah doesn't know boy and I made out.
Up since yesterday.
Evil spanish test/paper kicked my butt.
Was to tired to say anything when either of my guys talked to me. Stood mutely.
Need sleep badly.
I brought up oldest boy's expectations because I was confused. I started with, "you don't want to date me, right?" He went, "umm, what are you asking?" "well, Vaughn from spanish asked me out, and vince just did also, and Shawn is wanting to get more serious, and I don't know what you want or expect." he said, "well, I don't expect anything. I'm just enjoying your company. *worried tone* I hope you're enjoying mine" *with smile in my voice* "that's a very good non-committal answer" "hey now, i just *fluster fluster fluster*" "I'm perfectly fine with that" I'd thought he was saying what he thought would keep me kissing him without making any commitment. That was what I had expected. "No, I mean, I don't have any expectations for right now, but" *my memory is slightly garbled, so it's something along the lines of* "future" "want" "take relationship to next level" and "talk about it".
What I don't get is if this is just a more elaborate "what will keep her here w/o commitment" or if it's something else. He seemed to think I took it wrong when I said it was non-committal. However, I'm certain my tone of voice didn't express anything but amusement. I don't think he wants to date me. I'd just wanted to make certain, and didn't succeed. I still don't know either way.
Too busy to see him, had to turn him down.
Went bowling with old HS friends.
Applied temporary tattoo to Nate with my tongue.
Spent another wonderful night with oldest boy.
Asked oldest boy about his expectations.
Am no less confused about above than was previously.
Spent time with Sarah.
Sarah likes boy who bruised my lip during make-out.
Sarah doesn't know boy and I made out.
Up since yesterday.
Evil spanish test/paper kicked my butt.
Was to tired to say anything when either of my guys talked to me. Stood mutely.
Need sleep badly.
I brought up oldest boy's expectations because I was confused. I started with, "you don't want to date me, right?" He went, "umm, what are you asking?" "well, Vaughn from spanish asked me out, and vince just did also, and Shawn is wanting to get more serious, and I don't know what you want or expect." he said, "well, I don't expect anything. I'm just enjoying your company. *worried tone* I hope you're enjoying mine" *with smile in my voice* "that's a very good non-committal answer" "hey now, i just *fluster fluster fluster*" "I'm perfectly fine with that" I'd thought he was saying what he thought would keep me kissing him without making any commitment. That was what I had expected. "No, I mean, I don't have any expectations for right now, but" *my memory is slightly garbled, so it's something along the lines of* "future" "want" "take relationship to next level" and "talk about it".
What I don't get is if this is just a more elaborate "what will keep her here w/o commitment" or if it's something else. He seemed to think I took it wrong when I said it was non-committal. However, I'm certain my tone of voice didn't express anything but amusement. I don't think he wants to date me. I'd just wanted to make certain, and didn't succeed. I still don't know either way.