Chris you don't even know about having a sucky life. I have to work to pay college off and then im going to school. And my #1 Priority is spending time with you. You let me forget about school and work and its so nice. But sometimes Everything just builds up and i just feel like i have to do everything all at once to finish it for the next day. And then i really don't get anything done. I always feel like im stupid, and so i just want to leave everything behind and not come back to school, and work and everything else that i have a responsibility for. And Yes, the only thing i would take is you of course!!
I guess im venting now so listen.... if you want......
You know when you have that special thing you do like for example running for me. (well was) It was a very big stress reliever for me, because i could run forever in anger or frustration and then everything is just relieved from my mind. And i feel much better. Or like when you work out you listen to music and you are very focused and just keep working hard and just forget that you were upset, or just let all of the anger out. I need that stress reliever, i know its not going to be running anymore but i just need to find something where i can just let go and not care what people think. So, leaving everything behind was my first choice. But i know it can't happen.
All i want is one day! One day to relieve my pain and hurt. And silly thinking about you, that i have been doing a lot lately. I wish i could live without work, family, school, and friends. Sometimes i feel like im in a book, where i don't know what is to come and what i should do for a living and who i will be with for the rest of my life. If im going to be successful with a family and a good job that i enjoy doing. And will i still go to church after college. or will i just leave it all behind. When i know that i really need to fill my life with God's love first and then everything else. And ill find out what happens at the end of the book.
All i want is one day to relieve everything and forget.
I guess im venting now so listen.... if you want......
You know when you have that special thing you do like for example running for me. (well was) It was a very big stress reliever for me, because i could run forever in anger or frustration and then everything is just relieved from my mind. And i feel much better. Or like when you work out you listen to music and you are very focused and just keep working hard and just forget that you were upset, or just let all of the anger out. I need that stress reliever, i know its not going to be running anymore but i just need to find something where i can just let go and not care what people think. So, leaving everything behind was my first choice. But i know it can't happen.
All i want is one day! One day to relieve my pain and hurt. And silly thinking about you, that i have been doing a lot lately. I wish i could live without work, family, school, and friends. Sometimes i feel like im in a book, where i don't know what is to come and what i should do for a living and who i will be with for the rest of my life. If im going to be successful with a family and a good job that i enjoy doing. And will i still go to church after college. or will i just leave it all behind. When i know that i really need to fill my life with God's love first and then everything else. And ill find out what happens at the end of the book.
All i want is one day to relieve everything and forget.
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