Soon, I wont even be able to fit inside a table booth!
My son is constantly on the move. i can see my skin move when he turns and kicks and punches. I am starting to feel the pressure in my rib cage. and my stomach is starting to round out. I feel intense movement when his daddy plays his music (death metal). I like to think that hes thrashing in there. I think a lot about him. Hes inside me, and hes been with me almost a year, but i have yet to meet him. i have seen his face in a sonogram image, but thats not enough. It was when i was still early in the pregnancy, but now im just so excited. i have about 7 weeks before i get to see him in the flesh with my own eyes.
but i feel for my Ants, while i am basking in this wonderful time, he is feeling all of my pain. Hes moody, hungry, has cravings, is uncomfortable, has gained weight... all the things i thought i would end up feeling, he is. he has taken all the bad things out of being pregnant. my poor love.
I am having a Baby Shower. Its set for Saturday, July 7th. That just happens to be JTs birthday. and on that note, he happens to be in town. i dont know if hes going to be here on that day. But i invited his mom and Bronwyn to the baby shower. i wont be suprised if they dont show up, or if he gets insulted or anything really. I wish i could talk to him, but i dont think i can. I really miss him. Hes such a good guy, but we cant get over anything... or maybe we have and we just dont know it yet. Im considering trying to meet up with him and talk to him and just ... talk. But with that i run the risk that i could offend him. is nothing the best answer? or should i try and reach out...?
Tomorrow i get to go and get the party favors with Edwina. She told me she would cover any expense i needed. So if she can get the decorations and party favors, and my mom is taking care of the food, then summer and i can do the games and prizes. I am really suprised at the fact that i am so excited about a party. I guess i just never really had a "real" or rather, "formal" one before that i am just so excited. I never saw my self here, having a baby shower. I always say my self with a child, that wasnt a suprise at all, but i never thought it would be as grand as it is. at least to me. My mom and family are really happy about it, and i am with a man that is just going to be the best father. and his family is just as happy for us too.
And his probation ends in 15 days. then about 30 days after that, our son will be comming. so an estimated 45 days... wow. Wow.
but i feel for my Ants, while i am basking in this wonderful time, he is feeling all of my pain. Hes moody, hungry, has cravings, is uncomfortable, has gained weight... all the things i thought i would end up feeling, he is. he has taken all the bad things out of being pregnant. my poor love.
I am having a Baby Shower. Its set for Saturday, July 7th. That just happens to be JTs birthday. and on that note, he happens to be in town. i dont know if hes going to be here on that day. But i invited his mom and Bronwyn to the baby shower. i wont be suprised if they dont show up, or if he gets insulted or anything really. I wish i could talk to him, but i dont think i can. I really miss him. Hes such a good guy, but we cant get over anything... or maybe we have and we just dont know it yet. Im considering trying to meet up with him and talk to him and just ... talk. But with that i run the risk that i could offend him. is nothing the best answer? or should i try and reach out...?
Tomorrow i get to go and get the party favors with Edwina. She told me she would cover any expense i needed. So if she can get the decorations and party favors, and my mom is taking care of the food, then summer and i can do the games and prizes. I am really suprised at the fact that i am so excited about a party. I guess i just never really had a "real" or rather, "formal" one before that i am just so excited. I never saw my self here, having a baby shower. I always say my self with a child, that wasnt a suprise at all, but i never thought it would be as grand as it is. at least to me. My mom and family are really happy about it, and i am with a man that is just going to be the best father. and his family is just as happy for us too.
And his probation ends in 15 days. then about 30 days after that, our son will be comming. so an estimated 45 days... wow. Wow.