You talk too much.
I hurt. I hurt in ways i cant believe.
I have horrible carpltunnle in both hands, more so in the right.
My feet kill me.
My heart aches.
My head hurts.
My spine is burning.
I feel beat, battered and broken. I cant imagine the next 4 weeks. April 4th... and thats not even settled, then, thats just the rescheduel.
All because he was "talking". Talking involves making noise. He didnt even get to see the judge. His public pretender was a dill hole. His PO refused to take him back.
I cant believe how much i rage at the world right now. I am so tired. I think i spent most of the day crying. Everything hurts so much. And i cant really talk to anyone about it. Denise is the only person that i think i can talk to right now, but i hate talking about it. talking doesnt do anything to help, and no one cares to hear about it. thats that. i dont want to hear that any one is sorry or thinks it sucks or tells me he deserves it or simply says "i dont know what to tell you." i dont know what to do. i feel so tired. i feel like i want to give up, but there is no giving up. giving up doesnt exist. the only way to give up is to keel over and die. no. just.... keep at it, day by day. maybe we can have his court date rescheduled to a sooner date. i think i could go down there and talk to his secretary again.
i dont know. tomorrow i go to the doctors to see about the baby. hopefully that will make me feel better.
::sigh::
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I have horrible carpltunnle in both hands, more so in the right.
My feet kill me.
My heart aches.
My head hurts.
My spine is burning.
I feel beat, battered and broken. I cant imagine the next 4 weeks. April 4th... and thats not even settled, then, thats just the rescheduel.
All because he was "talking". Talking involves making noise. He didnt even get to see the judge. His public pretender was a dill hole. His PO refused to take him back.
I cant believe how much i rage at the world right now. I am so tired. I think i spent most of the day crying. Everything hurts so much. And i cant really talk to anyone about it. Denise is the only person that i think i can talk to right now, but i hate talking about it. talking doesnt do anything to help, and no one cares to hear about it. thats that. i dont want to hear that any one is sorry or thinks it sucks or tells me he deserves it or simply says "i dont know what to tell you." i dont know what to do. i feel so tired. i feel like i want to give up, but there is no giving up. giving up doesnt exist. the only way to give up is to keel over and die. no. just.... keep at it, day by day. maybe we can have his court date rescheduled to a sooner date. i think i could go down there and talk to his secretary again.
i dont know. tomorrow i go to the doctors to see about the baby. hopefully that will make me feel better.
::sigh::
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