watch you fall
dominican was lame as hell. i thought about matt the entire time. literally. every couple that i saw there reminded me of him and i was surrounded by couples every single day. i had this horrible dream there. i thought it was real to the point of calling up the people and asking them about it. i was so stressed about it. eh whateves. i got woken up today by yelling downstairs. im so sick of it. i just want him to leave and stop wrecking our house. like why bother. dfkjlnsdf. i love him i just cant see my parents being torn down every single day over it. i seriously cant take it. my knees fucking hurt really bad. i dont know why. i smoked alot tonight. i got really sick and my stomach still kinda hurts right now. i hate smoking but somehow find myself doing it when other people do it. i hate smeling like smoke. it makes me gag. every time i light a cigg i cringe. ew. ive been trying to wear my retainers to bed but my mouth hurts so bad that i cant wear it. its lame. im talking to gary now. hes saying everything right. im not attracted to him though. i need to not care so much about looks. he has facial hair too and i cant standdd that. ew. my knee really hurtssss. my fucking ovaries have been hurting lately too. i prob have another cyst on my ovary. dfklgjnd. lame. why is he saying everything right! everyhting he is saying right now just makes me happy. its exaclty what i want to hear. ah.