one month.
one more month left of high school. i'm pretty excited, i must say. it's wierd, high school really just flew by! I'm so happy for it to be done though.
anyway, life is pretty good. it's been such a long long time since i updated and i'm sure no one wants to hear my life story. but i'm so happy right now, i love my friends so much. and i hate how cliche that sounds, but they complete my life. i haven't had a BAD time in so long. but lately a few of my friends have been upset. i'm doing everything i can to help them and i'm honestly trying to give them an uncensored view of the situation, but i don't want to hurt them. but they know i'm here for them.
anyways, i'm still struggling with how i look. last night i had a pretty bad breakdown in front of ELIZABETH and michele, because i didn't think i looked good in anything. it was pretty sad. and right now as i sit here in sweats, i'm pretty sure i DON'T look good in anything. i've been watching what i eat, cutting back a lot, and going to the gym. in fact, thats where i just came from. i went 6 out of 7 days this week, even after a night of 2 hours sleep. i just don't see results, and i hate it because i need to. if im constantly going to be around extremely attractive people, don't i need to look good as well? :[ fat blaster class tomorrow at 6:30.
and i am black as hell from tanning. i love it.
OH, i also pretty much give up on relationships. i haven't let myself like anyone in a long time. so why would i start now? beats me. so i'm not going to. buddy fuck, where art thou? (oh yeah, we never really hang out. WORD.)
pretty gross and disgusting right now. shower is much needed. lifestatus = 170.
anyway, life is pretty good. it's been such a long long time since i updated and i'm sure no one wants to hear my life story. but i'm so happy right now, i love my friends so much. and i hate how cliche that sounds, but they complete my life. i haven't had a BAD time in so long. but lately a few of my friends have been upset. i'm doing everything i can to help them and i'm honestly trying to give them an uncensored view of the situation, but i don't want to hurt them. but they know i'm here for them.
anyways, i'm still struggling with how i look. last night i had a pretty bad breakdown in front of ELIZABETH and michele, because i didn't think i looked good in anything. it was pretty sad. and right now as i sit here in sweats, i'm pretty sure i DON'T look good in anything. i've been watching what i eat, cutting back a lot, and going to the gym. in fact, thats where i just came from. i went 6 out of 7 days this week, even after a night of 2 hours sleep. i just don't see results, and i hate it because i need to. if im constantly going to be around extremely attractive people, don't i need to look good as well? :[ fat blaster class tomorrow at 6:30.
and i am black as hell from tanning. i love it.
OH, i also pretty much give up on relationships. i haven't let myself like anyone in a long time. so why would i start now? beats me. so i'm not going to. buddy fuck, where art thou? (oh yeah, we never really hang out. WORD.)
pretty gross and disgusting right now. shower is much needed. lifestatus = 170.