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Recently my little sister's boyfriend broke up with her. He told her that when he was alone in his house and feeling lonely, he didn't think about her. Thus leading him to the conclusion that the relationship wasn't exactly what he thought it was. That made me think. Because when I'm alone and feeling lonely... Who or what do i think of? Do I think of Justin?.... Sadly I don't think I do. And if I do, it's not much. It's not wishing he was there with me. It's just thinking about how our relationship isn't what I wish it was. :/
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I'm not a horrible person and I'm not perfect. I do my best to learn from my past mistakes, but sometimes it seems that I forget and hope that something has changed. Though this is part of being human. We all make mistakes. I just wish the mistakes I made only affected myself. But I have hurt other people. Not on purpose. I never mean to, but it happens. I would take over all the pain I have ever dealt to anyone if I could.
I have so many things running through my mind. So many things that I could write about. but I don't know if I should quite yet. For writing things down means its in black and white. I can't take it back. What were to happen if i wrote something and I ended up hurting someone again? I'm just s afraid of hurting someone. So afraid of making more mistakes.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I'm not a horrible person and I'm not perfect. I do my best to learn from my past mistakes, but sometimes it seems that I forget and hope that something has changed. Though this is part of being human. We all make mistakes. I just wish the mistakes I made only affected myself. But I have hurt other people. Not on purpose. I never mean to, but it happens. I would take over all the pain I have ever dealt to anyone if I could.
I have so many things running through my mind. So many things that I could write about. but I don't know if I should quite yet. For writing things down means its in black and white. I can't take it back. What were to happen if i wrote something and I ended up hurting someone again? I'm just s afraid of hurting someone. So afraid of making more mistakes.