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Quick update. I went on my vacation. Had such a wonderful time. It was so nice to get away from everything here. And once i was gone my mind cleared. I was able to think and not feel like i had the weight of the world on my shoulders. It was great. I didn't do much while I was there. A lil sight seeing but mainly just being lazy. Watching movies and drinking Starbucks. Heh. Justin is wonderful. Can't put my finger on why I like him so much. With him being in the Marines we refuse to make ourself boyfriend/girlfriend. Both of us know better then to try a long distance thing. But he gets out in 9 months. Going on deployment soon though. He's different and that's what I like. Plus he isn't trying to get me. He doesn't buy me thing and say stu[id shit about how we need to be together and blah blah. He just is tere to make me laugh without trying. I've found that I hate it when people try so har to do something. Especially when people won't stop trying to get me to go out with them. Only throws me further away. But Justin is just.... I dunno. I like him, maybe falling for him but I hold one hell of a wall lately. Good times with him and he's never pressed me to od anything or een anything but a gentleman. Sure he can be a cocky lil ass, but in some odd way I like that. He's completely blunt and honest and I love bluntness. Whether is is nice or not. Just talk to me straight. I'm back in Minn. though and everything seems to have fallen back on me. Stupid of me to even think it might not have. I knew it would. Too many things going on here and just so many things I can' do anything about. My car is out being fixed so I'm stuck home by myself. Sucks but maybe I'll get some things done. heh. I've realized that nothing will be as it once was. The friendships I once had will never be the same. The memories of what were will always be with me, but that is what they are now, memories. I love each and every one of my friends, but I finally stopped beating myself up for thinking it was my fault for everything. life changes us all and friendships grow apart. Life goes on and we keep with us the times we share. I know people will bethere if I need them, just as i hope they all know the same. I miss the old days, but I'm not a child anymore. This is reality and I will get through everything. I'll have my good times and my bad, but I'l be ok. ^.^