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Reality check..... >.< Dammit. Things right now are nowhere near where I pictured them to be a few years ago. I'm different myself. I was ok for a while there and i don't know where I started to switch around. To become the person I never saw myself as. Sure, I'm having fun, least most of the time, but I've lost so much for it. Why must I keep hitting these extremes. Either too far this way, or too far this way. >.< I've lost friendships which I don't even know if they are salvagable. And if they are, could my old friends see that even though experiences have changed me, deep down I'm still the same old me. Could I work tings out, or is it a lost cause? >.< WHy am i even thinking about giving up. >.< Gah. These are people I care about. People who have been there for me through alot of shit. Can we all accept the differences time has placed in each one of us? Life's a bitch. It really is. Somewhere I was doing really well. I had things figured out and i was going to do my damndest to keep in contact with people and such, and then somehow things changed. I'll rant more later. Dad is here with more stuff. Love ya'll..... even if sometimes it doesn't seem like it.