just gettin some stuff off my mind a little
well.......everything is good. i love life for the most part. i'm not depressed like i used to be. always a good thing. i have a lot of good friends. honostly though i hate that once you're friends with a girl it basically won't ever change. i've recently realized how much i actually like a couple of the girls i hang out with or used to hang out with. they are seriously a couple of the coolest girls i've ever met in my life. one i don't really talk to anymore and i know is flake but i wish we did more stuff and the other i still hang out with quite a bit but just seems like nothin will ever happen. i dont know how she feels at all. im so confused wish it was all easy i really think something good could happen between me and her. but i think she likes mexicans and obviously i'm not. i don't know though it may just be friendly interaction but it seems like we kinda both have a thing for each other. i really don't know though. i hope so. i get a weird feeling around her. she is one of the coolest girls ive ever met. i hate that i can't do anything about goin further with a girl once i realize how much i like one or think they're incredibly good looking. i'm really just a intimidated motherfucker. and it blows.