taking a few moments...
It's already November. I keep forgetting.
Today... 3 albums are released and I want them:
The Retrosic - Nightcrawler
And One - Bodypop
Seabound - Double Crosser
Actually... I really want the new Seabound album.
But I'm going to wait until Metropolis puts out the limited edition of Double Crosser. I'm excited.
...i don't want to wait... I want to listen to Castaway.
Lyrics:
Icon of Coil - Dead Enough for Life
Prove and disprove
Efficiency of prayer
Supposed to be harmless
Can never get enough
A three headed watchdog
This, my revelation
My only disease
A manifest of life
Chorus:
If I could reach through
Catch you
Make you understand
If I'm not dead enough for life
Am I alive enough for death?
*Chorus
A gift from the unknown
Promises they gave us
Rejection of faith
An eye for this purpose
Emotional images
Drawn with a single line
Our methods are unsound
A life I cannot offer
I cannot offer
Chorus (4x)
This song has probably been one of the more recent obsessed songs that i am constantly listening to. To imagine that it's the same Andy (of Combichrist) singing, "get your body beat" or "this shit will fuck you up". I find it strange. Everytime i listen to this song... it makes me think about him. Actually a lot of things make me think about him. Sometimes I feel like I'm so far apart from him and I wonder if we would ever work out. Sometimes I wonder if he really understands me and I want to stop him and just pick through his mind and see what he knows about me. I don't understand how we get along so well... or if we do. maybe i'm hallucinating? i'm sure some people will tell me that I don't need to be constantly thinking over why this is somewhat working out... but it will be on my mind none the less.
We're getting a bit better conversing on the phone. I really need to get him a cell phone. I think he's beginning to enjoy the convience of having one. It's kind of nice to hear his voice. He called me today after his class and even if we only talked for 10 minutes, it's nice to hear his voice and feel a slight relief that he's alright. Even though he called to say he wasn't going to stop by after class... it's nice to hear that he's concerned about my education, my well being, and talk about things. Perhaps i'll try and go to his general 'Sunday Fun Day' with his guy friends.
This past weekend has been a busy one. I'm going to keep this entry short. Momentarily I shall go lay in bed and really start doing my reading and research for my senior project. I've redone my outline and have condensed my topic a bit more to focus on noise mitigation and what landscape architects have done and can do to mitigate noise. I think i've definately got a better feel for things, though I want to expand on my research project and cover more subjects in relation to sound, noise, and landscape architecture.
I spent friday taking the day off. Actually spent the afternoon visiting CEDG designs. It was definately worth my time and i'm grateful that they company welcomed me for a short amount of time. I spent a short amount of time in Claremont and stopped by the tea store to pick up some tea. I bought Blue Willow black tea, Coconut flavored black tea, and a Green tea and chrysanthemum tea ball. I haven't had the other teas but i've been drinking the tea ball all evening. I think i'm comming down with a cold again. I'm not looking forward to it. I spent early friday evening making a spinach dip for sunset_scorpio's birthday/halloween party the next evening. Following that I drove down to LA, picked up Jon and we went to Bunker.
Bunker wasn't anything exciting, but it was nice and perhaps relaxing. It was nice to hang out with Jon. Though I have to say my night at Bunker wasn't exactly the best. I was feeling down for most of the night. Also, for some reason people kept bumping into me at BUNKER. I think I was getting more and more frustrated over the fact that people kept getting into my way while I was dancing. I got so frustrated that I started dancing on the big box in the main room but these skanky clad girls kept joining me on the box and really i think that ruined my whole night all together. I was even more frustrated seeing men who were down below staring at their nearly half naked booties. Fucking hoes (i'm such a conservative LOL). Another point in time a girl passed by my way when I was in Amanda's room and i accidently hit her with my boot, I apologized but she gave me this dirty look and seemed to refuse my apology. what a bitch. Honestly, don't go to a goth club if you think you're not going to get away without a bit of bruise here and there from a boot or two. because that shit happens. It's why i wear boots to goth clubs.
I spent Saturday afternoon doing chores, and saturday evening at the party. I had a good time. I got to see old faces, meet a few new ones, play drunken jenga and just relax.
On sunday I spent sleeping in. neku_niku actually came to visit me for the afternoon, we hung out around my place having great conversations, got into some semi-casual lolita gear and went to "Life Plaza" this asian shopping area (where Acade Infinity is) to take purikura. I actually ran into laserkei at the purikura place! It was nice seeing you again. I'm glad to see that you're doing well. You should post in LJ more often. :P After purikura photos were taken, we went to AI so i could get my fix of pop'n'music, and then ate ramen for dinner. After all of that we headed back to my place and Shey went home.
... and yes it says, "Lolitas are evil goodness of doom" (don't ask what kind of crack i was smoking at the time)
I spent the next half hour doing my online history quiz and then went to go pick up jessz and took her to Malediction Society. It was her first time! Malediction Society was a lot of fun. Met new faces, saw old faces, danced a lot. The boy actually managed to find a way over (thanks to my lovely friend! i owe her one) and i was glad to see him. We actually got our very first photo together (taken by Vu) . It was... a strange moment. I wonder what that photo will look like... *ponders* It felt good to have him by my side for a little while. I feel like things are slowly growing between us. I must be dreaming... Though I have to admit I do constantly think about him and he makes me happy (though there are things that he does that make me somewhat frustrated... but my viewpoints of this is still changing. I haven't decided really how much of it i'm going to let it affect me). I think we're still evolving. After MAL I had to drive him home and then drive all the way back to Pomona. I didn't get home till about 4AM. I worked on my landscape practice paper till about 4:45... passed out for 3 hours and then got up and went to school.
I'm still awake... but I don't have class till 1PM tomorrow. Thank goodness. I still have many things to do. As the boy suggested about an hour and a half earlier ago that I should go get some rest. But not until I do a decent amount of reading for my research project.
Today... 3 albums are released and I want them:
The Retrosic - Nightcrawler
And One - Bodypop
Seabound - Double Crosser
Actually... I really want the new Seabound album.
But I'm going to wait until Metropolis puts out the limited edition of Double Crosser. I'm excited.
...i don't want to wait... I want to listen to Castaway.
Lyrics:
Icon of Coil - Dead Enough for Life
Prove and disprove
Efficiency of prayer
Supposed to be harmless
Can never get enough
A three headed watchdog
This, my revelation
My only disease
A manifest of life
Chorus:
If I could reach through
Catch you
Make you understand
If I'm not dead enough for life
Am I alive enough for death?
*Chorus
A gift from the unknown
Promises they gave us
Rejection of faith
An eye for this purpose
Emotional images
Drawn with a single line
Our methods are unsound
A life I cannot offer
I cannot offer
Chorus (4x)
This song has probably been one of the more recent obsessed songs that i am constantly listening to. To imagine that it's the same Andy (of Combichrist) singing, "get your body beat" or "this shit will fuck you up". I find it strange. Everytime i listen to this song... it makes me think about him. Actually a lot of things make me think about him. Sometimes I feel like I'm so far apart from him and I wonder if we would ever work out. Sometimes I wonder if he really understands me and I want to stop him and just pick through his mind and see what he knows about me. I don't understand how we get along so well... or if we do. maybe i'm hallucinating? i'm sure some people will tell me that I don't need to be constantly thinking over why this is somewhat working out... but it will be on my mind none the less.
We're getting a bit better conversing on the phone. I really need to get him a cell phone. I think he's beginning to enjoy the convience of having one. It's kind of nice to hear his voice. He called me today after his class and even if we only talked for 10 minutes, it's nice to hear his voice and feel a slight relief that he's alright. Even though he called to say he wasn't going to stop by after class... it's nice to hear that he's concerned about my education, my well being, and talk about things. Perhaps i'll try and go to his general 'Sunday Fun Day' with his guy friends.
This past weekend has been a busy one. I'm going to keep this entry short. Momentarily I shall go lay in bed and really start doing my reading and research for my senior project. I've redone my outline and have condensed my topic a bit more to focus on noise mitigation and what landscape architects have done and can do to mitigate noise. I think i've definately got a better feel for things, though I want to expand on my research project and cover more subjects in relation to sound, noise, and landscape architecture.
I spent friday taking the day off. Actually spent the afternoon visiting CEDG designs. It was definately worth my time and i'm grateful that they company welcomed me for a short amount of time. I spent a short amount of time in Claremont and stopped by the tea store to pick up some tea. I bought Blue Willow black tea, Coconut flavored black tea, and a Green tea and chrysanthemum tea ball. I haven't had the other teas but i've been drinking the tea ball all evening. I think i'm comming down with a cold again. I'm not looking forward to it. I spent early friday evening making a spinach dip for sunset_scorpio's birthday/halloween party the next evening. Following that I drove down to LA, picked up Jon and we went to Bunker.
Bunker wasn't anything exciting, but it was nice and perhaps relaxing. It was nice to hang out with Jon. Though I have to say my night at Bunker wasn't exactly the best. I was feeling down for most of the night. Also, for some reason people kept bumping into me at BUNKER. I think I was getting more and more frustrated over the fact that people kept getting into my way while I was dancing. I got so frustrated that I started dancing on the big box in the main room but these skanky clad girls kept joining me on the box and really i think that ruined my whole night all together. I was even more frustrated seeing men who were down below staring at their nearly half naked booties. Fucking hoes (i'm such a conservative LOL). Another point in time a girl passed by my way when I was in Amanda's room and i accidently hit her with my boot, I apologized but she gave me this dirty look and seemed to refuse my apology. what a bitch. Honestly, don't go to a goth club if you think you're not going to get away without a bit of bruise here and there from a boot or two. because that shit happens. It's why i wear boots to goth clubs.
I spent Saturday afternoon doing chores, and saturday evening at the party. I had a good time. I got to see old faces, meet a few new ones, play drunken jenga and just relax.
On sunday I spent sleeping in. neku_niku actually came to visit me for the afternoon, we hung out around my place having great conversations, got into some semi-casual lolita gear and went to "Life Plaza" this asian shopping area (where Acade Infinity is) to take purikura. I actually ran into laserkei at the purikura place! It was nice seeing you again. I'm glad to see that you're doing well. You should post in LJ more often. :P After purikura photos were taken, we went to AI so i could get my fix of pop'n'music, and then ate ramen for dinner. After all of that we headed back to my place and Shey went home.
... and yes it says, "Lolitas are evil goodness of doom" (don't ask what kind of crack i was smoking at the time)
I spent the next half hour doing my online history quiz and then went to go pick up jessz and took her to Malediction Society. It was her first time! Malediction Society was a lot of fun. Met new faces, saw old faces, danced a lot. The boy actually managed to find a way over (thanks to my lovely friend! i owe her one) and i was glad to see him. We actually got our very first photo together (taken by Vu) . It was... a strange moment. I wonder what that photo will look like... *ponders* It felt good to have him by my side for a little while. I feel like things are slowly growing between us. I must be dreaming... Though I have to admit I do constantly think about him and he makes me happy (though there are things that he does that make me somewhat frustrated... but my viewpoints of this is still changing. I haven't decided really how much of it i'm going to let it affect me). I think we're still evolving. After MAL I had to drive him home and then drive all the way back to Pomona. I didn't get home till about 4AM. I worked on my landscape practice paper till about 4:45... passed out for 3 hours and then got up and went to school.
I'm still awake... but I don't have class till 1PM tomorrow. Thank goodness. I still have many things to do. As the boy suggested about an hour and a half earlier ago that I should go get some rest. But not until I do a decent amount of reading for my research project.