Gettin' hurt for nothin
Today was so crazy. Even though my two "best" friends are totally treatnig me like im a stupid slut *even though everyone knows im NOT!, i had a really good day. Doug and Nick totally flirted with me all day. OMG nick wants to mess around. haha...wow funny stuff. I guess Doug told him that he doesnt care what he does with me. That he can fuck me for all he cares. but if anyone else hits on me or touches me, Doug will kick their ass. Haha...clayton grabbed my butt today and Doug punched so fucking hard. Omg i couldnt stop laughing! yeah...Doug was very huggy and touchy today. I loved it so much! I am so happy AHH! He carried me like after every period and gave me hugs and flirted and pretty much acted like we were going out. GOD it was so awesome!
But Laura and Jenni hate me. But what am i suppose to do? Change? i thoughtthat they didnt like that? Right now i am not going to focus on them. I need to focus on my future. I need to focus on school, my family, and myself. I need to get healthy again. Im sick of being sick! I cant focus on negative shit that is just going to bring me down. I have to stay positive. And i cant get stressed out. I cant. I cant. I cant. Laura and jenni are just makingit harder for me. and i dont need that right now. I dont need that crap. Im not a bad person. I dont smoke, i hardly ever drink, i have only done everything with one guy because i trusted him with my life. God i am so crushed right now. I cant believe the two people who i relyed on most....totally crushed me. I was crying all night last night and when i came home today. I hate myself...well i guess i have something in common with jenni and laura...my two best friends...hmm...dunno about that
But Laura and Jenni hate me. But what am i suppose to do? Change? i thoughtthat they didnt like that? Right now i am not going to focus on them. I need to focus on my future. I need to focus on school, my family, and myself. I need to get healthy again. Im sick of being sick! I cant focus on negative shit that is just going to bring me down. I have to stay positive. And i cant get stressed out. I cant. I cant. I cant. Laura and jenni are just makingit harder for me. and i dont need that right now. I dont need that crap. Im not a bad person. I dont smoke, i hardly ever drink, i have only done everything with one guy because i trusted him with my life. God i am so crushed right now. I cant believe the two people who i relyed on most....totally crushed me. I was crying all night last night and when i came home today. I hate myself...well i guess i have something in common with jenni and laura...my two best friends...hmm...dunno about that