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Bought the new Coldplay today. I would have downloaded it but I still dont have internet.
I'm in week 5 of my new job, and so far its been crazy. I dont really work as hard as I used to (meaning, no more bussing tables, washing dishes, or delivering pizzas) Its quite nice to let other people do it for a change. Progressively, I am learning more about being a restaurant manager within such a huge company like Nordstrom. My GM is leaving at the end of the month, and I basically have to learn everything he does by then. At least he trusts me to take over. In a year, this place could be mine if all this goes well.
Otherwise, I feel pretty shitty. I am so frustrated/angry/confused/pissed off at this whole situation with kyle. Its like all of a sudden he's too cool to spend 5 minutes talking to me. I talk to my friend in Iraq more than kyle. I'm offended that after knowing that we should talk about it, and knowing how upset I was...he STILL didnt have the decency to call me. He's my best friend above all, and from this I can see how he doesn't really care at all. Out of sight, out of mind, right?
I bent over backwards to get 2 days off from work. Thats all I wanted, to drive down to gainesville to support him on his first night at UC. He doesn't know that I had intentions of going, but after all this, I decided that it wasn't worth it anymore. I decided to spend the two days lying in bed and catching up with my relaxing.
I hope through this experience I become stronger. I let myself get attached, in hopes that we would be attached together. But as usual, it hasnt quite panned out that way.
Sometimes I feel like crying, in a corner of my bedroom....but I haven't actually done it yet. Im struggling to let go at this moment, because I'm not sure that Im ready.
I'm in week 5 of my new job, and so far its been crazy. I dont really work as hard as I used to (meaning, no more bussing tables, washing dishes, or delivering pizzas) Its quite nice to let other people do it for a change. Progressively, I am learning more about being a restaurant manager within such a huge company like Nordstrom. My GM is leaving at the end of the month, and I basically have to learn everything he does by then. At least he trusts me to take over. In a year, this place could be mine if all this goes well.
Otherwise, I feel pretty shitty. I am so frustrated/angry/confused/pissed off at this whole situation with kyle. Its like all of a sudden he's too cool to spend 5 minutes talking to me. I talk to my friend in Iraq more than kyle. I'm offended that after knowing that we should talk about it, and knowing how upset I was...he STILL didnt have the decency to call me. He's my best friend above all, and from this I can see how he doesn't really care at all. Out of sight, out of mind, right?
I bent over backwards to get 2 days off from work. Thats all I wanted, to drive down to gainesville to support him on his first night at UC. He doesn't know that I had intentions of going, but after all this, I decided that it wasn't worth it anymore. I decided to spend the two days lying in bed and catching up with my relaxing.
I hope through this experience I become stronger. I let myself get attached, in hopes that we would be attached together. But as usual, it hasnt quite panned out that way.
Sometimes I feel like crying, in a corner of my bedroom....but I haven't actually done it yet. Im struggling to let go at this moment, because I'm not sure that Im ready.