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the semester is almost over. im not sure how i feel about that. i dont feel like ive done all the things that freshmen are supposed to do. i guess im just not ready to leave being a freshmen behind. but then again nothing much is going to change in the fall. ill still be living in the same building with an awesome girl. i can still hang out with the same people. itll just be a different year. just please let me get through this semester with alright grades.
im going to be more outgoing in the fall. ben will be gone so i wont be able to hang out with him whenever i need company. i fear that ive become to reliant on him. but i love him and the more i do the more it scares me. because this is real. this is my life. and he could be the one.
i need summer. i need to be back with my friends. its like summer gives us a clean slate. im no longer off in another state. im just as close. we have kept in touch and everything is still the same but i need that time to catch up. ive missed things this year and that makes me sad.
i think if i could do it all over again. i would either stay in georgia for college(so i would go to UGA and not be an engineer. id have a life and people to enjoy it with). or i would go really far away. i really like it up here in penn state. i think i would go far away if i could do it again. and let go. i think its almost easier for my friends that came from forever away. they knew ahead of time that they wouldnt be able to stay bffs with their old friends. i dont know. ive gotta go.
im going to be more outgoing in the fall. ben will be gone so i wont be able to hang out with him whenever i need company. i fear that ive become to reliant on him. but i love him and the more i do the more it scares me. because this is real. this is my life. and he could be the one.
i need summer. i need to be back with my friends. its like summer gives us a clean slate. im no longer off in another state. im just as close. we have kept in touch and everything is still the same but i need that time to catch up. ive missed things this year and that makes me sad.
i think if i could do it all over again. i would either stay in georgia for college(so i would go to UGA and not be an engineer. id have a life and people to enjoy it with). or i would go really far away. i really like it up here in penn state. i think i would go far away if i could do it again. and let go. i think its almost easier for my friends that came from forever away. they knew ahead of time that they wouldnt be able to stay bffs with their old friends. i dont know. ive gotta go.