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i think i finally get it. it might all finally be clicking. that doesnt mean im perfectly alright mentally or emotionally. but im starting to understand why i am here. why i left everything i knew to come here. i shouldnt feel sorry for myself or feel like i did something noone else does because i each day i encounter new people who come from much further than me. but thats alright. its been a month since ive seen my friends. and i have another week and a half to go. im finally realizing that no matter where in the world i am or how long its been- those girls are my everything. i can go a week without talking to them if life gets hectic but in the end we are still the same girls with the same friendship we always did. amen to that.
i dont know why ive been thinking a lot about marriage lately. maybe its because i know a lot of people who are getting married soon or already married or thinking about it a lot. but it rubs off on you. and we all say we like being free and dont want to settle down. but if you have found that special someone why wouldnt you just want to go ahead and claim him so nobody else steals him. girls can be vicious you know. and if you still want to run free while being with him are you really meant to be with him? maybe i watch too much tv or think about too many chick flicks. but i do know that i want to go somewhere spectacular for my honeymoon. nowhere in the country unless its hawaii or something. but i want to go somewhere tropical. in the caribbean or pacific or something. thats romantic to me. no florida or anyother US city that ive been to with my parents. its got to be magical. thats my one request.
i should be studying physics right now. but sometimes getting out whatever is on your mind is just so much more important. it keeps you sane. and sometimes i have trouble with that. for example: i was trying to watch tv tonight and it kept getting interrupted with pointless updates about the election. its not that the election is pointless to me but all the important stuff was already scrolling at the bottom of the screen. i dont need to hear talking heads share their opinions or who they want to win. grrrrrr.
alright i think im done. now its back to learning about electric fields and all that retarded stuff.
i dont know why ive been thinking a lot about marriage lately. maybe its because i know a lot of people who are getting married soon or already married or thinking about it a lot. but it rubs off on you. and we all say we like being free and dont want to settle down. but if you have found that special someone why wouldnt you just want to go ahead and claim him so nobody else steals him. girls can be vicious you know. and if you still want to run free while being with him are you really meant to be with him? maybe i watch too much tv or think about too many chick flicks. but i do know that i want to go somewhere spectacular for my honeymoon. nowhere in the country unless its hawaii or something. but i want to go somewhere tropical. in the caribbean or pacific or something. thats romantic to me. no florida or anyother US city that ive been to with my parents. its got to be magical. thats my one request.
i should be studying physics right now. but sometimes getting out whatever is on your mind is just so much more important. it keeps you sane. and sometimes i have trouble with that. for example: i was trying to watch tv tonight and it kept getting interrupted with pointless updates about the election. its not that the election is pointless to me but all the important stuff was already scrolling at the bottom of the screen. i dont need to hear talking heads share their opinions or who they want to win. grrrrrr.
alright i think im done. now its back to learning about electric fields and all that retarded stuff.