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happy new year.
ill miss you 2007. and 2008, please be good to me.
2007 is special. when we are like 50 years old or something and hear 2007, its going to stick out. its the year it all changed. and its not like itll be the only big changing year in our lives, but i bet itll always be one of the biggest. its the year we grew up. we left the nest. and we learned to fly with our own wings. its been hard. and from the amount of tears ive cried- its been far from easy. but i truly believe that what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.
im sad that at times ive questioned whether or not auburn is the place for me. and yes its no fairy tale, but its keeping me afloat. and its gotta be a pretty amazing place if it could separate me from my friends. my loves. my other halves. fate took me there. i may have found the reason, i may not have. but regardless, there is one.
the best thing ive learned in 2007 is that *this* is not my life. suwanee isnt my life. neither is auburn. collins hill isnt either. my life is within me. these are just places i lived my life. maybe that doesnt make sense. but its been hard for me to realize that the majority of the people ive been around arent meant to stay around me much longer. they shaped who i was, but they are then sending me out on my own. so no matter where i am in the this world or who im with- im living my life. and i guess thats all that matters. and of course theres those special people that get to stick around for a while and even if they are physically miles apart they will always be some of the most important and influential people i know.
for the first time in my life i got emotionally close to a boy. yeah ive had plenty of boyfriends before. but this is different. ive never let someone so close to me that it would really hurt to lose. i guess ive had this wall up all along. i didnt do it on purpose. i just never let anyone get close enough to me to actually hurt me. its scary. really scary actually.
resolutions for 2008: lose weight(duh), eat healthier(duh), get good grades(duh). but also i want to have a better faith life. i already go to church every sunday but i need to quit going through the motions and truly living my faith life. i need to love more. like everyone in general. be a better friend. i need to smile more and always find the good in things. and maybe its cliche but i think i need to stop and smell the roses more often. man i wish there could be 25 hours in a day. even though id probably spend that extra hour sleeping. but thats alright because i should probably get more sleep anyways.
heres to you, 2008. make it a good one.
ill miss you 2007. and 2008, please be good to me.
2007 is special. when we are like 50 years old or something and hear 2007, its going to stick out. its the year it all changed. and its not like itll be the only big changing year in our lives, but i bet itll always be one of the biggest. its the year we grew up. we left the nest. and we learned to fly with our own wings. its been hard. and from the amount of tears ive cried- its been far from easy. but i truly believe that what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.
im sad that at times ive questioned whether or not auburn is the place for me. and yes its no fairy tale, but its keeping me afloat. and its gotta be a pretty amazing place if it could separate me from my friends. my loves. my other halves. fate took me there. i may have found the reason, i may not have. but regardless, there is one.
the best thing ive learned in 2007 is that *this* is not my life. suwanee isnt my life. neither is auburn. collins hill isnt either. my life is within me. these are just places i lived my life. maybe that doesnt make sense. but its been hard for me to realize that the majority of the people ive been around arent meant to stay around me much longer. they shaped who i was, but they are then sending me out on my own. so no matter where i am in the this world or who im with- im living my life. and i guess thats all that matters. and of course theres those special people that get to stick around for a while and even if they are physically miles apart they will always be some of the most important and influential people i know.
for the first time in my life i got emotionally close to a boy. yeah ive had plenty of boyfriends before. but this is different. ive never let someone so close to me that it would really hurt to lose. i guess ive had this wall up all along. i didnt do it on purpose. i just never let anyone get close enough to me to actually hurt me. its scary. really scary actually.
resolutions for 2008: lose weight(duh), eat healthier(duh), get good grades(duh). but also i want to have a better faith life. i already go to church every sunday but i need to quit going through the motions and truly living my faith life. i need to love more. like everyone in general. be a better friend. i need to smile more and always find the good in things. and maybe its cliche but i think i need to stop and smell the roses more often. man i wish there could be 25 hours in a day. even though id probably spend that extra hour sleeping. but thats alright because i should probably get more sleep anyways.
heres to you, 2008. make it a good one.