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I'm so angry with you
I'm angry that I'm still so sad about the decisions you've made. I should know better by now.
Im angry because I'm feeling like I've never known you all along.
I HATE the person you've become.
Im angry because you've chosen DRUGS over your family, over your son.
I'm angry because your parents are supporting your behaviour instead of understanding and supporting me throughout this.
I'm so fucken angry that you could go on with you life, not even caring about how much you're hurting me and your son, who still asks for "daddy" everyday.
Are you proud with the life you're living? A life of lies, recklessness and selfishness.
I fucken hate that this is what has become of you.
You sicken me, not in a million years did I think YOU, of all people would do this to me.
How could you?
How can you not even realise how much of a problem you have?
How can you not SEE everything you're missing.
You're a complete loser, deadbeat. I never pictured myself ever being able to call you a DEADBEAT and mean it.
I thought you had more pride then that. So easily filling that title,without even noticing or CARING.
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Marc has been making an effort to see Owen lately which I truly was greatful for, because I dont want Owen growing up without a father like I had to. But theres always a bigger picture, the only reason he EVER comes by is because he's ran out of money. According to him, hes always "broke" but he starts coming to visit about 3-4 days before his next cheque comes in (which would be the time when he's completely broke. And usually he only comes here to "come down" per say, where he says hes coming to visit, I look over and he's sleeping. Yesterday he came and spent about an hour with Owen from around 6:30 -7:30, the left of course to go on with his regular nightly ways. I think its SAD that he can't even stay sober long enough to see his son sober. He was clearly stoned yesterday when he was here. Atleast hes a functionning pot head, non the less, I do not support this behaviour and find it quite sickening. He told me before he left he was going to come over today to drop off 100$ and a box of diapers for Owen since today is pay day. I heard that same story 2 weeks ago on his last pay day. I have full intention on not seeing him again for another week an a half when he runs out of money.
How can you make your son your last resort, when he deserves to be nothing less then your first priority.
I fucken HATE you. How fucken DARE you be so selfish.
I'm angry that I'm still so sad about the decisions you've made. I should know better by now.
Im angry because I'm feeling like I've never known you all along.
I HATE the person you've become.
Im angry because you've chosen DRUGS over your family, over your son.
I'm angry because your parents are supporting your behaviour instead of understanding and supporting me throughout this.
I'm so fucken angry that you could go on with you life, not even caring about how much you're hurting me and your son, who still asks for "daddy" everyday.
Are you proud with the life you're living? A life of lies, recklessness and selfishness.
I fucken hate that this is what has become of you.
You sicken me, not in a million years did I think YOU, of all people would do this to me.
How could you?
How can you not even realise how much of a problem you have?
How can you not SEE everything you're missing.
You're a complete loser, deadbeat. I never pictured myself ever being able to call you a DEADBEAT and mean it.
I thought you had more pride then that. So easily filling that title,without even noticing or CARING.
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Marc has been making an effort to see Owen lately which I truly was greatful for, because I dont want Owen growing up without a father like I had to. But theres always a bigger picture, the only reason he EVER comes by is because he's ran out of money. According to him, hes always "broke" but he starts coming to visit about 3-4 days before his next cheque comes in (which would be the time when he's completely broke. And usually he only comes here to "come down" per say, where he says hes coming to visit, I look over and he's sleeping. Yesterday he came and spent about an hour with Owen from around 6:30 -7:30, the left of course to go on with his regular nightly ways. I think its SAD that he can't even stay sober long enough to see his son sober. He was clearly stoned yesterday when he was here. Atleast hes a functionning pot head, non the less, I do not support this behaviour and find it quite sickening. He told me before he left he was going to come over today to drop off 100$ and a box of diapers for Owen since today is pay day. I heard that same story 2 weeks ago on his last pay day. I have full intention on not seeing him again for another week an a half when he runs out of money.
How can you make your son your last resort, when he deserves to be nothing less then your first priority.
I fucken HATE you. How fucken DARE you be so selfish.