life is nothing but a tease
Notice the mood was left blank. Probably because I want to be feeling a certain way but can't quite do that yet. Probably because I don't know what to do or think. Probably because I don't know what I want. Probably because I can't know anything for sure. Probably because my life's a mess, as usual.
I don't mind this mess, though. In fact it's a completly welcome mess (not at all like the messes you find when you take out a pair of headphones sthat you haven't used in like 5 years and untangling the wires makes you want to kill yourself). Anyways, reason being it's one of the ones that if I can extricate myself from it, the rewards will be well worth it.
Who really knows themselves? I mean, really knows who they are. Because you can't, until a situation arises that requires you to show your true colors. To steal a bit from Firefly, "Spend your entire life living with a man. Get to know his life, family, friends etc. Then hold him over the top of a volcano. On that day you'll meet the man." A little strange, I know, but it illustrates my point, I think.
I think I know who I am now. Or at least more about it.
The scary thing is, I know I'm not alone. There are others, and only someone incredibly self involved would be deluded enough to deny that history repeating applies to you, too. You're not an exception.. And I'm scared that I'm not either.
Haha, too bad none of this will make sense to anyone. It belongs in my journal. The real one, the one I don't publicize. Takes more effort though. Till next time, take it easy. Tanya
I don't mind this mess, though. In fact it's a completly welcome mess (not at all like the messes you find when you take out a pair of headphones sthat you haven't used in like 5 years and untangling the wires makes you want to kill yourself). Anyways, reason being it's one of the ones that if I can extricate myself from it, the rewards will be well worth it.
Who really knows themselves? I mean, really knows who they are. Because you can't, until a situation arises that requires you to show your true colors. To steal a bit from Firefly, "Spend your entire life living with a man. Get to know his life, family, friends etc. Then hold him over the top of a volcano. On that day you'll meet the man." A little strange, I know, but it illustrates my point, I think.
I think I know who I am now. Or at least more about it.
The scary thing is, I know I'm not alone. There are others, and only someone incredibly self involved would be deluded enough to deny that history repeating applies to you, too. You're not an exception.. And I'm scared that I'm not either.
Haha, too bad none of this will make sense to anyone. It belongs in my journal. The real one, the one I don't publicize. Takes more effort though. Till next time, take it easy. Tanya