Oh goddamnit, I think I lost you..
Today Gabby came over to my moms house, we watched my dance tape haha she loved it? And then I made her watch part of the Britney Spears concert.. woop =).. Then she saw how PoOr my computer really is.. And then we came to my dads house, had some trouble setting up the router for broadband, i accidently hit the switch and turned everything off, fuckin speakers, oOo youre still here! lol
I'm supposed to go to the beach today. I doubt my dad will take me, because it probbably wont be til like 12? And itll probably start raining early, so I might just lay out, idno well see.. I might go Saturday or Sunday, & I think we're going out on the boat this week, [[hell yeah =D]]
Tuesday i leave for Arizona for 11 days.. Yeah it was 6 to begin with, but it got moved to 11 days.. I'll be gone for my birthday, so sad!! But yeah me & my dad are gonna rent a car and me, my brother, my dad, his wife, & my my neice and nephew r gonna go to the grand canyon.. And then after my bday me & my dad r gonna go to -CaLiFoRnIa, LaS vEgAs, and some other hot places-.. Idno if i'll have my dads cell phone on this trip, I really hope I do because 11 days without talking to all you guys is seriously going to kill me. If you guys have fun while I'm gone, don't tell me i dont wanna get jealous (((sniff))).. I'm gonna try to get online the few days I'm at my brothers house.. But there's a 2 hour time difference btw here & there, so that'll be hard. So if I have my dads cell phone I'll call a select few of you to chat =)
Okay so.. I was thinking and reading different peoples long things they filled out for lj.. And saving sex for marriage seemed like the thing all the grls wanted OR want to do, I really wanna do it.. But idno if I can hold on [[that sounds SO terrible]] but idk.. I mean I hate how I watch tv and theres teens out there that have had sex & theyre not with the dad of the baby.. If I were to have sex & get pregnant I would be so devistated.. I mean seriously, I don't want my kid to grow up not knowing theyre father, its just not cool. I mean i KNOW i have friends that have relationships like that, and I totally give them all the credit in the world for being so strong & stuff.. I mean I don't so much LIKE my dad, but he is my dad and I know he's been there for me thru everything so I have to put that into consideration.. My parents got a divorce when i was in 6th grade, and that was one of the worst things to ever happen to me.. When youre growing up you NEVER want to be torn apart into 2 different families.. But yeah, I give credit to all my friends that either aren't growing up with a mother/ and or father figure.. So if youre gonna have sex, pLeAsE be careful, cuz just think about it.. Not ALL guys are gonna be there for you if you get pregnant, and do you really want your kids growing up without ever seeing or even KNOWING theyre dad? Yeah, I know that getting pregnant and gettings STDs and wutnot r a huge reason why alot of people [[including myself]] aren't having sex.. Such a sad sad world.. Plus I know most of my friends havent found "the one" and I'm glad alotta ppl r holding out.. But thats just MY opinion I know so many ppl have way different view on this subject.. Not quite sure why I'm talking about this, but hey, at least you know my views on it lolol..
For all of this, I'm better off without you//Do you regret so your lonliness? -The Early November, I want to hear you sad
Love ya // *xOx