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so I have experienced that soul searching happens to be the hardest and most time consuming task. it is so fustrating to feel like you have settled on a decision just to rethink it 30 mins later. I believe its because I settled on it rather then accepted it. I feel that there is just so much more left that it cant possibly be the end. like, unfinished business, well not even that, just so much more that was suppose to happen. like its not suppose to be like this. its so hard to move on when I cant get even to the mind set of the idea.