Heavy Head
Ever get that feeling in your head where it feels so full tha tu cant think of anything else except one subject over and over and over again? Sometimes even the words in a song become a blur. Why do I still feel so emotionally tied? i hate this feeling. Its as if I just need to sit down and cry for bit. Ya as "gay" as that sounds... its kinda that feeling. Ok so more like I just want to thrash something(s) but you get the picture. I just need some sort of release. My head just feels heavy... I assume my chest feels the same way, but its hard to get past my head. I often wish it would just end. But that wouldnt be right. I often wish time would just move forward faster so that I may be past all this. But will I ever? Ya,... eventually. Really, I wish to be commissioned. I want to go serve. I want to start my career. I want to be away from here. I want the perfect girl, perfect life. I really hate waiting for it because I felt like I had that for so long and now its gone. I assume that is what everyone wants, but I'm tired of the search. I'm already tired of waiting for that girl in my head to spawn into this world and be by my side and visa versa. I'll be making a visit home soon... I need it... besides I need to see the dentist someday soon.