thoughts
246 days. We've been here for 246 days!! How is that even possible? I feel like my life is stuck in a huge vat of molasses. It sucks having my husband work an opposite shift. My job is 11am-7:30 pm on Monday, and 8-4:30 Tues-Fri. His is 2pm-10pm 6 days a week, and a lot of those days are mandatory overtime so it's 2pm-2am. When do we get to have a life together that isn't squeezing in 45 minutes here and there?
At first it was cool, I had so much free time and could do what I wanted and not worry about boring stuff like cooking dinner cause he wasn't home and I could just eat cereal! Then after the first year it got kinda lonely, never seeing him more than an hour before I have to go to bed, cramming everything that happens in our lives into the commercial breaks on the tv shows we dvr. Which isn't long, since we skip commercials. Now he's been there more than 2 years, and it's unbearable. I don't want to do this anymore. I feel so fucking selfish for wanting him to be home, because his job pays well and so many people aren't even working and can't afford their lifestyles and because he works this job that he hates, we can. But I just want my life to be somewhat normal again.
I'm going to update more about the house hunt and buying this one and the stuff we've done since we moved in but I'm too lazy. I have a lot of free time, obviously, but I've been trying not to sit on the computer a lot because I don't ever get anything done. I'm such a procrastinator.
At first it was cool, I had so much free time and could do what I wanted and not worry about boring stuff like cooking dinner cause he wasn't home and I could just eat cereal! Then after the first year it got kinda lonely, never seeing him more than an hour before I have to go to bed, cramming everything that happens in our lives into the commercial breaks on the tv shows we dvr. Which isn't long, since we skip commercials. Now he's been there more than 2 years, and it's unbearable. I don't want to do this anymore. I feel so fucking selfish for wanting him to be home, because his job pays well and so many people aren't even working and can't afford their lifestyles and because he works this job that he hates, we can. But I just want my life to be somewhat normal again.
I'm going to update more about the house hunt and buying this one and the stuff we've done since we moved in but I'm too lazy. I have a lot of free time, obviously, but I've been trying not to sit on the computer a lot because I don't ever get anything done. I'm such a procrastinator.