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Im too tired to make this update really count. But then again...it could be longer than Im intending in the end.
I got a total of around 3 hours of sleep last night. Not in a consecutive manner either. But over a period of time. Ugh. Yeah..had to stay at Daves. Meh. Anyways.
Anna tried to curl my hair. I turned out looking like Medusa...minus the snakes of course. That woulda been freaky deaky eh? So, pressed for time..had to stick my head under the fauset, blowdry it again..and straighten it kinda, and pull it back somehow. Ugh. I wanted to look all hot/pretty. I didnt feel like it much. I thought I look nicer than usual. When I wear that outfit I guess you could say. I just wanted to feel nice. Because Im in that pocket of total self doubt and self-consciousness still. Pulling out of it now kinda. I dont know. I just havent felt cute or pretty or whatever in a while. I need a makeover so I can look hot and have boys flock to me.
dammit..there I go...off topic..next...
anyways. Wedding. Nice. Short ceremony. Jori looked beautiful, Josh looked nervous. Reception was long. Food was amazing. Im so full I wanna explode right now. Everyone kept asking me if Justin and I were dating. I want to put a sign on the table explainging otherwise. graaawww. Kirk had asked me, and the right after, quickly, pulled aside, proceeded to ask if I was dating anyone right now. And he told me I looked good as well, earlier...........?............riiiiiight. Justin and I both thought Kirks vibe was weird. Toward Justin I guess. it was..like he he was jealous almost or something, I dont know. Hes and when I said we werent dating, just friends, he told me we should be dating. Weird huh? (get that all too much..why..wtf...I dont get you people dammit. graaaawwww times 2!)
No after party. No babysitting. No car. Justin could not have gone with me anyways. He ditched me. Naw, he didnt really. He hasnt really hung out with his uncle over at his sisters house this week, and Tams been outta town, so his uncle is there alone. So he wanted to go over there. Though he fetl bad..good...haha..no. I was trying to guilt trip him into not going over there. I think I got as far as the guilt trip, both ways on his part, but not the convincing to stay part. He tried to explain it on the way over there...I told him he didnt have to. I got it...it wasnt a big deal. I just wanted to hang out with him and not have to be alone over Daves babysitting. Watch some movies, play some games really...I just dont wanna be alone. Damn weddings. Make me want to be with someone. Now I feel super lonely. Everyone is out partying, or babysitting, or..hanging out with their uncles. blah. Im at home doing this..whoop whopp...tra la la. bullseye. I got nothing. Im done.
I hate when sometime Ijust get way to lonely for no reason. I totally need a cuddle buddy tonight, haha. Damn Justin, haha. No. You know. I dont know. whatever. I need to close presence of a male whom I can be cuddly and/or flirty with. Cuz I just feel really lonely. Weddings I tell you. SOmething in the food! ah! Food...puke...ugh. I want to. Im so full..its making me more tired.
soIm done and goodbye
I got a total of around 3 hours of sleep last night. Not in a consecutive manner either. But over a period of time. Ugh. Yeah..had to stay at Daves. Meh. Anyways.
Anna tried to curl my hair. I turned out looking like Medusa...minus the snakes of course. That woulda been freaky deaky eh? So, pressed for time..had to stick my head under the fauset, blowdry it again..and straighten it kinda, and pull it back somehow. Ugh. I wanted to look all hot/pretty. I didnt feel like it much. I thought I look nicer than usual. When I wear that outfit I guess you could say. I just wanted to feel nice. Because Im in that pocket of total self doubt and self-consciousness still. Pulling out of it now kinda. I dont know. I just havent felt cute or pretty or whatever in a while. I need a makeover so I can look hot and have boys flock to me.
dammit..there I go...off topic..next...
anyways. Wedding. Nice. Short ceremony. Jori looked beautiful, Josh looked nervous. Reception was long. Food was amazing. Im so full I wanna explode right now. Everyone kept asking me if Justin and I were dating. I want to put a sign on the table explainging otherwise. graaawww. Kirk had asked me, and the right after, quickly, pulled aside, proceeded to ask if I was dating anyone right now. And he told me I looked good as well, earlier...........?............riiiiiight. Justin and I both thought Kirks vibe was weird. Toward Justin I guess. it was..like he he was jealous almost or something, I dont know. Hes and when I said we werent dating, just friends, he told me we should be dating. Weird huh? (get that all too much..why..wtf...I dont get you people dammit. graaaawwww times 2!)
No after party. No babysitting. No car. Justin could not have gone with me anyways. He ditched me. Naw, he didnt really. He hasnt really hung out with his uncle over at his sisters house this week, and Tams been outta town, so his uncle is there alone. So he wanted to go over there. Though he fetl bad..good...haha..no. I was trying to guilt trip him into not going over there. I think I got as far as the guilt trip, both ways on his part, but not the convincing to stay part. He tried to explain it on the way over there...I told him he didnt have to. I got it...it wasnt a big deal. I just wanted to hang out with him and not have to be alone over Daves babysitting. Watch some movies, play some games really...I just dont wanna be alone. Damn weddings. Make me want to be with someone. Now I feel super lonely. Everyone is out partying, or babysitting, or..hanging out with their uncles. blah. Im at home doing this..whoop whopp...tra la la. bullseye. I got nothing. Im done.
I hate when sometime Ijust get way to lonely for no reason. I totally need a cuddle buddy tonight, haha. Damn Justin, haha. No. You know. I dont know. whatever. I need to close presence of a male whom I can be cuddly and/or flirty with. Cuz I just feel really lonely. Weddings I tell you. SOmething in the food! ah! Food...puke...ugh. I want to. Im so full..its making me more tired.
soIm done and goodbye