so...
i woke up really sad this morning...like just wrecked pretty much...i was crying in the shower and i felt just bummed out at the way things are going with a certain person. i was feeling sorry for myself and really thinking that things are just too different to ignore anymore. however, after about 20 minutes of sobbing, i stopped myself and told myself that honestly...i needed to get it together for work. when i made myself stop myself (confusing, i know) i realized that i should be totally happy. i had an AMAZING night last night (like really, any person in their right mind would be all smiles today)...even though i'm def paying for it this morning...and i get to see an angels playoff game tonight and lisaface tomorrow and another playoff game next friday. i'm home shopping, which is thrilling in itself. i dunno...anyone in my shoes would be ecstatic. so cheers to being able to control my emotions today (for once) and really choose to be happy. it may not last forever, and it may be just today that i'm able to do so, but hey..its a stepping stone. i think the things that i've set out to accomplish and really work on in my personality are slowly coming together. before i would just be totally sad all day and depressed, and i dont feel that way. now if only i could work on not texting while intoxicated. that would be a good thing. ta ta for now, folks.