What The Hell Is Going On? / The Best Night Of My Life EVER!!

[lilsislace]

What the fuck is going on? The relationship I have with Christina is totally changing. Yesterday we got into an arguement and then pretended like everything was okay, we never do that we usually talk things out. See, I just found out that Liz doesn't really like me at all, loathes me I guess you could say. Which actually comes to a big surprise to me seeing as I thought me and her were friends. We both despised each other in the beginning but we got over our differences and evolved into friends. And then with us hanging out all the time I was under the impression that we were true friends. My mistake. I mean all just kinda happened, no one told me she hates me but I just figured it out and Christina has done absolutely nothing to state otherwise. Nor has she defended me in anyway what so ever. She hasn't said a damn thing to Liz and she knows I'm very upset. Yesterday I sat in my room and cried because of all this but more so because of Christina. I would never in a million years allow Erica to hurt Christina. I would fucking scream and holler at her until she fixed things and I knew Christina was satisfied. I'm not saying that's what I want Christina to do because obviously people handle situations differently and I don't think she should do it "my way", however, I never would have imagined in a million years she wouldn't say anything at all. I have to listen to Christina talk shit about how Liz treats her and how unhappy she is and every once in a blue moon she will have something good to say about her, so I guess I just figured that if Liz was hurting me Christina wouldn't stand for it. It's okay though. I mean there's no sense in bitching about it cause it doesn't even matter, what does matter though, is me believing our friendship is suffering from all of this. I mean it's just so weird and I hate it. I mean I can put up with the fact of Liz not liking me, I can get over it and move on, it's not what is important to me, my friendship with Nina is. But for some odd reason I can't get over the fact that she didn't stand up for me, and trust me I really want to I just want everything to be okay but it hurts. I don't even think she realizes how bad it hurts me. But oh well it's cool, everything wil be fine. Or at least I hope. I guess I'm kinda scared that it won't. Well I ]'m just going to stop analysising the shit out of this situation like I do everything else and I guess I will just wait and see how everything turns out.

The Best Night Of My Life Ever -
Friday night is the night Erica and I celebrated our one year anniversary. It was soooo amazing. I came home and she had the greatest gift in the world set up for me. It was so sweet. I cried the whole we had sex. It was so wonderful, I couldn't have asked for a better present. It was beautiful. I love that girl so much, she helps take care of me in a way no other woman could. She amazes me more and more everyday. It was the most wonderful night of my life. I love her so much and I couldn't have asked for more. It was perfect. I love you Erica Ann.