Mission Failed...
So i attempted to sneak out of my house for the first time tonight. Beth had dropped me home at like midnight and so i did some things but was really tited so i went to bed. Well at 1ish my phone rings and its Koz seeing if i wanted to go up to Steak and Shake with them. Well of course i did. Since i found out Steve is leaving Monday morning now and doing his training is Boston. So my grandma and dad had gone to bed at like 1. I thought they were asleep so i fiqured that no one would notice and if she did it wouldnt be that big of a deal i would just tell her i went to get Steve cus he needed a ride. Well i start my car with my remote start and wait. NO sounds so i leave. Well i got up to Steak and Shake and hung out for like 20 minutes when my phone rings. it was my grandma. She was in tears and very upset. So i immediatly leave and come home. She doesn't know that whole story but i guess shes really not all that upset with me, theres stuff going on in the business but when she got up to get something and didn't see me she flipped. Understandably. I hate to make her upset. My grandma is my world. I mean sure we have our differentced. Sure theres times when i wish she didn't care so much. For the most part shes pretty cool. I mean i get to be out pretty much when i want and i know that if she asks me to come home i shouid. Of course i wish i didn't live at home sometimes but you know what to have somene care about you that much is a good feeling. Thats why i do as i'm told, i know my grandmas tones i know when i can get out of it or when i should listen to her and come home. thats why she trusts me so much is because i am responcible. As i write this tears are welling up because it hurts me that i scared her and then on top of it that shes sick and upset with my aunt. Although i don't regret leaving and the precious 20 minutes i got to spend. Another time i guess is in store. Well i think i'm going to go to bed or maybe write in my other journal I dont know i'm wide awake but i have to work at 10.