Kayle is my fuckin life...Im hempin her rite while writing this
So there was this one time where I was in love with my best friend in the entire world -- Matthew Robert Polk!!! And yup he has a girlfriend and I spent the day with him and then she came along at some point...and when they would kiss or whatever I wanted to kill her mostly...I wanted to crawl inside my jacket and die....yup basically that was my life yesterday -- a whole bunch of wanting to die or kill someone...Wow I love him so much -- holy wow do I ever....I am serioulsy 100% undeniably in love with him and he has no clue and I cant tell him because I cant chance fucking up our friendship and I dont want things to be weird between us...or when his gf is around and considering that I see him at QCC everyday -- yeah theas no avoiding him..I mean come on my seat is next to his in our sociology class...abuh.....It hurts soooo much to see him with another girl....He has no idea how much that is tearing me up inside when I see him with her...no idea at all...I would give nething to be with him....I have loved him since the first day I met him and these feelings -- they wont go away...no matter how hard I try to make em they just keep getting stronger instead of going away and I dont know what to do with myself nemore....do I tell him? Do I ignore my feelings and try to suck it up? Do I try to keep my distance and hope that he doesn't think nething of it? Do I avoid him and see if he comes to me? Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Im so confused...I fuckin hate this love shit...