When will this stop?
The last few days have pretty much sucked hard core. :-/ I dont even feel like trying anymore... but I have to I guess.
I have been stressed out about not having a car and about getting a loan and all that junk.
I had a doctors appt this morning and I'm in pain and not happy.
I sent a letter to my grandpa the other day asking if he would help with money for school just for a loan and I will pay him back. I only sent a letter rather then calling because he cant hear. My grandpa has always been #1 in my life up until a few years ago when he met this stupid lady and married her and let her take him away from his family to California. That hurt enough. Ever since I was little he always told me I could be anything I wanted to be if I went to college and he always always promised to help me out with everything (which is one of the reason I'm in college is for him) So I talked to him tonight because I guess he didnt understand the letter when it was perfectly clear (his stupid wife feeds him with alcohol so he never know whats going on its her plan or something) anyway the things he said to me was a freaking shock and I cant get over it. He told me he doesnt have much money and they our living off their social security and what not. ok what the fuck. my grandpa sold his house before he left for California and got 500,000 dollars in cash. and even before that he was a millionaire he never spent his money and he had mad retirement money saved up. so I'm guessing his stupid wife fucking ran him dry which make me so angry because its not her money! grr. he told me he know he always told me he would help me but his life has changed and he is saving up to extend his porch COOL!.... ok so I'm pretty sure when your life changes that doesnt mean you forget about your family that cares about you and break promises to your granddaughter because you have to save up for a porch. god there is so much more he said to me that just made me so upset I couldnt help but cry. If anyone knew my grandpa before he left he was the nicest man you would ever meet and would do anything for you. I just dont understand:-/ He was my everything.
I have been stressed out about not having a car and about getting a loan and all that junk.
I had a doctors appt this morning and I'm in pain and not happy.
I sent a letter to my grandpa the other day asking if he would help with money for school just for a loan and I will pay him back. I only sent a letter rather then calling because he cant hear. My grandpa has always been #1 in my life up until a few years ago when he met this stupid lady and married her and let her take him away from his family to California. That hurt enough. Ever since I was little he always told me I could be anything I wanted to be if I went to college and he always always promised to help me out with everything (which is one of the reason I'm in college is for him) So I talked to him tonight because I guess he didnt understand the letter when it was perfectly clear (his stupid wife feeds him with alcohol so he never know whats going on its her plan or something) anyway the things he said to me was a freaking shock and I cant get over it. He told me he doesnt have much money and they our living off their social security and what not. ok what the fuck. my grandpa sold his house before he left for California and got 500,000 dollars in cash. and even before that he was a millionaire he never spent his money and he had mad retirement money saved up. so I'm guessing his stupid wife fucking ran him dry which make me so angry because its not her money! grr. he told me he know he always told me he would help me but his life has changed and he is saving up to extend his porch COOL!.... ok so I'm pretty sure when your life changes that doesnt mean you forget about your family that cares about you and break promises to your granddaughter because you have to save up for a porch. god there is so much more he said to me that just made me so upset I couldnt help but cry. If anyone knew my grandpa before he left he was the nicest man you would ever meet and would do anything for you. I just dont understand:-/ He was my everything.