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I don't know how much longer I can bare to sit around and watch the slow decomposition.
It's been about a month since my fathers chemo and radiation treatments have ended. I realize it's going to take time for him to heal from the toxic effects of these type of therapies but he seems to have had a huge set back this week. His throat was slowly starting to feel better, to the point where he could actually sip water(a huge deal since he has not even swallowed his own saliva since xmas). His first appointment with the oncologist since his treatments ended was last week and went quite well. From what my mother told me, they couldn't see any cancer when they went down his throat with the camera...but a few days ago the pain returned. He's had a fever for days, complains of a burning sensation deep in his throat and is coughing up green mucus. green.
I've been trying to spend as much time with him as possible over the last few months, but I simply can't be there all the time. It's so frustrating to see him going downhill yet declining to look at any information I have sent him regarding additional therapies. At the beginning of all of this my mother promised me that when his treatments ended, they would find a really good naturopathic doctor and put him on a proper nutrition program like I have been suggesting. I even went ahead and contacted a few ND's in Windsor who specialize in holistic oncology, nutrition therapy and IV vitamin therapy and shared this information with my parents. But like always, they say one thing and do another...never following through with anything!
While spending a week with him last month I went along with him to his appointment with the dietitian at the cancer clinic and really had it out with her. I can't believe the best thing they can prescribe to put in his feeding tube is Ensure and Resource meal replacement drinks. These products are sugar laden garbage! sugar to a cancer patient!..after all I have told them about the negative effects of sugar..not only to healthy people..but to someone who has cancer! It's beyond frustrating that they pay no regard to anything I say, but why would they. I went to school for fashion design.
My life is about to change really soon however. Everything I've gone through, not only with my father but dealing and healing my own health issues and watching the suffering of others close to me has deeply changed the person I am. I kinda had one of those "AHA" moments a few months back. You know, the kind you read about in long winded novels, or see in made for t.v. movies. I've finally realized what I'm passionate about, and it no way involves sitting behind a sewing machine for the rest of my life.
I'll be applying to the Shiatsu School of Canada to study shiatsu and acupuncture in September, followed by the program offered at the Institute of Holistic Nutrition..along with some other smaller courses and certificates of interest I'll be looking into. It's kinda scary..planning a completely different path but it feels so right. Not one part of me of doubting this decision. All I want is to be part of a healing process. It's perhaps too late to talk sense into my father, a truly heartbreaking reality, but I'm too passionate about this not to purse it as a career.
crying myself to sleep tonight and dreaming of better days ahead
It's been about a month since my fathers chemo and radiation treatments have ended. I realize it's going to take time for him to heal from the toxic effects of these type of therapies but he seems to have had a huge set back this week. His throat was slowly starting to feel better, to the point where he could actually sip water(a huge deal since he has not even swallowed his own saliva since xmas). His first appointment with the oncologist since his treatments ended was last week and went quite well. From what my mother told me, they couldn't see any cancer when they went down his throat with the camera...but a few days ago the pain returned. He's had a fever for days, complains of a burning sensation deep in his throat and is coughing up green mucus. green.
I've been trying to spend as much time with him as possible over the last few months, but I simply can't be there all the time. It's so frustrating to see him going downhill yet declining to look at any information I have sent him regarding additional therapies. At the beginning of all of this my mother promised me that when his treatments ended, they would find a really good naturopathic doctor and put him on a proper nutrition program like I have been suggesting. I even went ahead and contacted a few ND's in Windsor who specialize in holistic oncology, nutrition therapy and IV vitamin therapy and shared this information with my parents. But like always, they say one thing and do another...never following through with anything!
While spending a week with him last month I went along with him to his appointment with the dietitian at the cancer clinic and really had it out with her. I can't believe the best thing they can prescribe to put in his feeding tube is Ensure and Resource meal replacement drinks. These products are sugar laden garbage! sugar to a cancer patient!..after all I have told them about the negative effects of sugar..not only to healthy people..but to someone who has cancer! It's beyond frustrating that they pay no regard to anything I say, but why would they. I went to school for fashion design.
My life is about to change really soon however. Everything I've gone through, not only with my father but dealing and healing my own health issues and watching the suffering of others close to me has deeply changed the person I am. I kinda had one of those "AHA" moments a few months back. You know, the kind you read about in long winded novels, or see in made for t.v. movies. I've finally realized what I'm passionate about, and it no way involves sitting behind a sewing machine for the rest of my life.
I'll be applying to the Shiatsu School of Canada to study shiatsu and acupuncture in September, followed by the program offered at the Institute of Holistic Nutrition..along with some other smaller courses and certificates of interest I'll be looking into. It's kinda scary..planning a completely different path but it feels so right. Not one part of me of doubting this decision. All I want is to be part of a healing process. It's perhaps too late to talk sense into my father, a truly heartbreaking reality, but I'm too passionate about this not to purse it as a career.
crying myself to sleep tonight and dreaming of better days ahead