pretty sappy entry sorrrry.
things are simply okay. im lying, everything is good except for...
i need a job by February 1st. Or im screwed. That gives me 5 days.
I've come to figure out a lot of things lately. Like what and who truly makes me happy and what truly bothers me and gets me upset. Things have changed soo much from this time last year. I think if i were the same person i was, id probably hate myself. not hate myself but hate who i was. I can honestly say a have a totally different set of friends who i didnt even know exsisted last year, and now not one day goes by where i am not thankful for them. Also an amazing boyfriend.who has proved to me that every other realtionship i have ever had before this was absolute shit and unheatlhy in the most ridiculous ways possible. i thought boys like him only exsisted in movies. honestly. I am so thankful for him and love.And one specific friend, who if not for her, i probably wouldnt have half the friends i have today. Naiomi, the girl that when she first met me thought i was dating my brother. the girl who after only hanging out once before, went to crush and took away my fear of dancing and singing like a drunk idiot in public.And sara bear who is the most amazing advice giver ever.<3 And alllllll of my friends because you make me forget about everything and bring out me. the real me. not the last year me.
which is the best feeling in the world.
ryan, naiomi, ky, sara, erica, julia, nicole, melissa, missy, cynthia, justine, giancarlo, david, janine, kiersten, sophia, you etc etc etc.
cause now i know who i am, because of YOU.
Thank you.
These are my thoughts written down on paper,
It's my only savior
from not saying what I want to say.
These are the thoughts that are on my mind
Moments that haven't yet been defined
And I don't know if you could ever understand
These are the things I can't say when were alone.