Bored so updating
Today sucked so bad at softball.. I swear it had to be like 24-0 =( They were really good, there a national all star team. Elite, I wouldn't mind being that good. But any ways first inning kellie got hit with the ball whicked hard and had to go off the feild. Melissa Helliwell played short, now I'm not going to lie I was a bit pissed because I'm usually back up short when Kellie can't play. And for eveyone who thinks I think that I'm the shit and think i'm better then everyone else, well I don't. Not at all I don't care about where I play I just want to play. Everyone thinks I want shortstop so bad.. well I don't i mean I love playing there but I like playing 2nd and 3rd base to. I like just playing softball. Playing short is a + to it. What I really want to play is pitch and I'm working at it so maybe i'll be a pitcher again in future times. Oh yeah and also, Jessie Bryant if you read this... honestly I don't care if you take my spot. You deffinatly could be better then me I've never seen you play and if you are the best of luck to you. I honestly don't care just to let you know. I know I've been a bitch to you about it but now I don't care it's the farthest thing from my mind. K... ok now that that's all off my chest.... Kellie and I were shitting our pants everytime they hit the ball haha they were some big girls. Big girls= fast hard hits. Stacey and Melissa played for us today. Stacey is nice haha. she's so funny. But yeah after the game I came home and had some dominoes =).
So yeah I just need to vent in my LJ haha. Honestly I'm in love with this boy. I've never been so sure. If you ask, maybe I will tell you. Maybe not? who knows. =) But yes he's amazing everytime I speak of his name I smile. I love him so much. Some day we will be together... we both know it... we're just waiting for the right time. I just love talking to him I love being with him even more. We faught this year I was sad. He was right I was just talking crazy talk and said things I didn't mean. He knows me oh to well. Maybe this is to obvious? Yeah probably but oh well. For all you who think it is Bryan Arthur... it's not haha but I love that boy to :) He's my boi. best friend for life. Speaking of bryan arthur just to let you know i miss you terribly. We haven't hung out in like foreverness. I miss you coming to my soccer games and the moral support you give me. I do miss you deeply, let's hang out once your better please =) Oh yes, thank you for calling me while you were in the hospital it ment a bunch to me knowing that you knew I would love to hear how you were doing =) Your amazing bryan arthur I couldn't ask for a better home boi =) Oh yes I say we hit up Maine this summer =) I'll go twice so you can come. Last year was amazing I had the best time with you. Everytime I hang out with you I have the best time, expecially liting marshmellows on fire with my little smore kit haha :) But yes I love you and miss you
Hmm, my mom and I haven't talked in 2 weeks now. I don't mind it, not at all. Less stress cause all we do is fight. But she is trying to talk to me now and I'm just not down with it. Some of you might know whats going on. Yeah she's trying to make it better but I'm making it worse haha. Maybe I should try and make it better. Random haha my sister just came in my room...
Jen- "did you have any homework?"
Me- "uhm no"
Jen- " So you wanna watch the game with your drunk sister?"
Me- " No I dont associate with drunkies hah"
Jen- " Yeah but it's ok if their related hahah"
then she friggen jumped on me ... first off we're home alone why would she be getting drunk by herself.. freaken loser :p but I love her haha.
I have to say my sister and I are more sisterly like now. She makes me laugh so much and we always fight.. like wrestle fight and I love it cause I kick her butt :) I miss hanging out with her. I used to love being just like her. Like i remember when I was 5 and she was 16 I used to match her like I had the same shoes as her and the same pair of overalls and I used to want to be just like her. I remember she let me stay home from school once and go to the aquarium with her and my brother in law =) I was so excited. But I was in like 3rd grade haha. Then I remember we went to 6 flags and like I don't like rollercoasters and fast rides so I had to stand by myself half the time cause we went with Katie Azier her old best friend but yeah she asked me if i was hungry and i said no then i was like wait.. yeah and she flipped out and we didnt talk for a year. I was so mad at her cause she made me cry all the way home. haha
I miss my old house =( It was so much nicer then this piece of shit. I do miss it intensely I miss my big ol' room. I do so much it's not even funny. I hate this life style. In my old house we weren't rich, but we deffinatly had a good amount of money. Now we have like none because we're redoing this whole house. and it's not even done yet. I hate it. I want to move back so bad.
Ok... let's talk about something good in my life. haha ...well let's see whats good.. school no family.. no hah oh yes my best friend Tiffany Dyer is whats good in my life =) I couldn't be more happier with the best friend that I have =) Yes, there is a 4 year difference but the fuck with age. Age shouldn't matter it shouldn't and I hate it. Hate it hate it hate it. Yes I'm 14 and she's 18. so... when i'm 20 she'll be 24 what the hell is the big difference there? That's right it doesn't really matter then 4 years is nothing. But it's only a big thing now because I'm a fucking freshmen and she's a senior. Stupid high school. Yeah I'm 14 I'll be 15 in may. May 30 mark your calenders haha. But yes I don't think I've ever hmm.. I don't know how to word this.. I don't think I've ever had a better best friend? Hmm let's explain this. In 4th grade Jackie Santiago was my best friend and I swore no one would ever take her place. But then 5th grade I met Veronica and she was like the relief cause Jackie had just moved. Then after 6th grade Veronica moved to Puerto Rico... and I swore that no one could ever take their places. It was simply impossible and no one had until now. Yes Kellie was my best friend during 8th grade but we relized.. we weren't ment to be best friends. Then hannah and I called ourselves best friends... but we were more like.. good friends like we never really hung out or anything. But Hannah is my girl she'll always be my girl forever and ever. But indeed Tiffany has topped them all. I remember the first time I met you tiff.. summer league tournoment oh I will not forget. I played center feild and you were at short and I tried to impress you so much. And i remember when I saw your tatoo I was like =o wow she's so cool she has a tatoo she's a bad ass haha. I remember when I found out your were a senior I was so sad hah but we got whicked tight during the tournoment you were the only one i talked to and we'd always sit near eachother after the games when we went out to eat. I knew after that tournoment that we would deffinatly be whicked tight I just knew it and I guess i was right? haha. I remember you were my great depression haha cause I didnt want summer league to end haha but then I called you a month later and we started hanging out and it's been the best ever since then =) I've never been so sure that we'll be best friends for infinity. Ok well.. we will deffinatly be good friends for eternity I don't know what she thinks about all this but I know she will be my best friend for life. No one and I mean no one in this world can take her spot. I swear on my life. Hold this journal entry against me. haha I'm usually the type of kid who can't hang out with someone like 1 on 1 I've never been able to I always have to be with a group. But with Tiff, it's different ya at first I needed to be with a third person like the first time we hung out Shannon came but after that I knew that I could hang out with her 1 on 1. And I wouldn't want it any other way. haha sounds like we're like dating haha. But yes she's by far the best thing going in my life =) I love hanging out with her because nothing else crosses my mind when we hang out because I'm focused on having the time of my life with her. Just hanging out here in marlboro... holy shit Maine we're going to have so much fun it's going to be crazy fun. Maine has to many cute boys I wouln't mind doing some of them hahah. But yes Tiffany you are my best friend and always ALWAYS will be forever and ever =) Thank you for being the best their is =)
There are also a bunch of other good people in my life. my friends you guys are simply amazing it's crazy =) ukwur
Angela Frost- Thank you so much for all you have done. I couldn't thank you enough for all the help you have given me =) You are an awesome friend and such an awesome person. I thank you so much for everything again =)
Also...
My favorites.. well the other 2 of them
Tanya and Michelle
Michelle- You deffinatly know how to cheer me up all the time. Your such a fun person to be with =) I love having long talks with you about people we don't like and just life in general =) You always know how to make my nights even though we just met this year your deff already up there in my book haha I mean look your already a impact in my life =) thanks for everything and I can't wait to become better friends
Tanya- At first you deffinatly didn't like me but that's ok. Haha I remember on you guys birthday when I went to you guys little party you were like " I don't even know the girl I just met her today" in like an attitudy voice haha and I was scared of you ahah but now I love hanging out with you and having you come to my games. Your so unbelievably nice =) My favorite thing was calling you and telling you I got in a fight with the girl at my game haha you just made my night because you were so mad you missed it haha. Thanks for being a good friend =) And i'm gunna miss you alot when you go off to college kid but that's still months away so we'll let the gtz roll :)
Elly- What can I say about you kid. you've helped me so much with everything thank you so much. Your such an amazing person don't let anyone tell you different! I remember in the summer we would have hour long conversations and it was the best. Thanks for being such a good friend ek. Seriously thanks alot.
My gangster AKA The Crew- Good fucking time with you girls. nothing but the best times! You guys are awesome. Exteme sledding til we cannot sled no more =) I love you guys so much. Thanks for being the best you guys =)
Other people that are important to me-
Jenna, Hannah, Shaf, Sheldon, Tybalt =p, Hixies, Cali (miss you kid), Alex,Jess w., Farese, Merk, Winskes, Shannon, Laura Flem (my twin), Kelz, Nicole, Colleen, Flynnie, Jessica Blanchard hah, Renee, Nimmy, Lisette, Jess Valerio,Jamie kid, ok basically all my friends =)
Team nasty- I just wanted to say I miss you 2 so much. It's not the same just not the same... lisette.. haha volleyball! :p
Also
much love to my softball girls and my soccer girls =)
You guys are amazing :)
Ok i'm done haha.
Adios
oh ya
PATS WON 24-21 =)
And this entry... put me in such a good mood :)
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