don't know
i don't know what to do besides write so i am going to just write out my hole entire feelings and whats going on in my head.. well i feel really bad like im such a bad person and i don't know what to do about it at all.. my throat is hurting my stomach hurts im just falling apart basically. and im tryin not to have it get the best of me but its going to i know it.. i just want my life to be normal it was all good until he came back and started talking to me again... and then i had it enought confused but then another person suddenly ims me again.. its like never ending.. just when my life is all good it screws up! ever fing time it does.. and im just so confused and school is gunna suck the hole year i just know it.. but mayb it'll get better. i just wanna keep writing forever allison is the only person talking to me and that makes me feel cool.. im listening to story of they year and im not tired at all im never gunna fall asleep at all! like i think i just made everything worse! but my life sucks and it was going so great too... i made the v-ball team and i had a great bf and then me im so stupid i always manage to screw up.. im just a screw up and i don't know where i belong.. like do i have a place or am i just there.. like i hide everything pretty well but this i just couldn't i cared about him too much.. and theres like no1 to talk to besides allison online and im fine with that and i can't even talk on the phone cuz my throat is like dry and crackily.. but hopefully i will feel better tomorrow but i doubt it like i never know what to do.. all these songs are like pertaining to me and its just weird.. but i just need ppl to talk to i guess i wish amy was on i could really need her right now! but i can still write alot more but i think im gunna stop for now.. allison is so great she is awesome! but now im done writing no1 has to hear about my sucky life anymore
adios!
adios!