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The past day or so, I have just felt weird. Kinda alone ish. I know I'm not, like I really know I'm not. But I wanna cry. Like I just feel like I'd feel better. And yet, the tears just aren't coming.
I am confused what to do with my calc class. I need to either take it seriously, or drop it, but I don't want to drop it, and I don't want to take it seriously either. Who is ever in the mood to do calc? Dunno.
I feel happy, like everything is great. And yet I feel like I'm missing something. I felt so bad because this guy that likes me, I lied to. I told him I had a date when I didn't so hopefully he would get the idea that I wasn't interested, cause I didn't want to lead him on. I felt so bad, I told him the truth today, and everything is good, I just hope he remembers the reason why I did it, that I don't want anything more than friendship. Felt like a huge ass, just didn't want to hurt his feelings by being honest is all, but I should respect him enough to give him the truth, so I did.
And then one of my guy friends got kinda weird. Like we were friends last year, but didn't really hang out until this year. And out of the blue he asked my roommate if I liked him. All because I always hit him or something? BUt I hit everyone, and all my other guy friends even told him I don't mean it as anything. But then he like thought my roommate liked him out of the blue. She was really offended by it, and so I had to sort that out. That's all cool now, but it bothers me a little to the affect that I don't want to be a tease or that girl that leads guys on, or everyone thinks she likes them. I guess I'm just too friendly sometimes, and he even admitted he wasn't used to me and my roommate's nice friendship.
And then my roommate got into a huge fight with her boyfriend, ran over his foot and everything. It was crazy. I have never seen a fight like that. So I was up until 630 this morning comforting her. Kinda don't have any sleep so maybe that's why I feel off today.
Other people are giving me issues, nothing that really matters. I am having fun. Game went over great yesterday, kinda sucks cause I can't really watch the game cause I"m always on the side lines. Ah well. My roommate's mom took me out to dinner last night. My family is going to my game this saturday for anyone interested, just lemme know.
yea I think I just need some sleep and then I'll get back on top again.
I am confused what to do with my calc class. I need to either take it seriously, or drop it, but I don't want to drop it, and I don't want to take it seriously either. Who is ever in the mood to do calc? Dunno.
I feel happy, like everything is great. And yet I feel like I'm missing something. I felt so bad because this guy that likes me, I lied to. I told him I had a date when I didn't so hopefully he would get the idea that I wasn't interested, cause I didn't want to lead him on. I felt so bad, I told him the truth today, and everything is good, I just hope he remembers the reason why I did it, that I don't want anything more than friendship. Felt like a huge ass, just didn't want to hurt his feelings by being honest is all, but I should respect him enough to give him the truth, so I did.
And then one of my guy friends got kinda weird. Like we were friends last year, but didn't really hang out until this year. And out of the blue he asked my roommate if I liked him. All because I always hit him or something? BUt I hit everyone, and all my other guy friends even told him I don't mean it as anything. But then he like thought my roommate liked him out of the blue. She was really offended by it, and so I had to sort that out. That's all cool now, but it bothers me a little to the affect that I don't want to be a tease or that girl that leads guys on, or everyone thinks she likes them. I guess I'm just too friendly sometimes, and he even admitted he wasn't used to me and my roommate's nice friendship.
And then my roommate got into a huge fight with her boyfriend, ran over his foot and everything. It was crazy. I have never seen a fight like that. So I was up until 630 this morning comforting her. Kinda don't have any sleep so maybe that's why I feel off today.
Other people are giving me issues, nothing that really matters. I am having fun. Game went over great yesterday, kinda sucks cause I can't really watch the game cause I"m always on the side lines. Ah well. My roommate's mom took me out to dinner last night. My family is going to my game this saturday for anyone interested, just lemme know.
yea I think I just need some sleep and then I'll get back on top again.