"as we fall its hard to get up again"
This journal entry im gonna complain what else is new. I don't even care anymore I really don't. If you don't want to hear it don't bother reading it just go along your merrily little way.
And here it goes.........
Fuck science fair projects serioulsy. Fuck being nice to people. Fuck people who have been acting shady towards you and when you ask they become more shady. Fuck parents. Fuck only getting two hours of sleep last night because I care way more then I should. Fuck newbury comics for not having the old Boys Night Out cd when they had it two days earlier I went there.FUCK BROKEN STEREOS. Fuck work. Fuck never having any money. Fuck guys. Fuck feeling like crap all the time. Fuck broken hearts. Fuck always getting things thrown up in your face.Fuck people who make you feel like a slut when in all actuality your not at all. Fuck people who lead you on. Fuck promises.Fuck staying in this goddamn house.Fuck being upset. Fuck people who don't care about you when you care so much about them.Fuck caring about people when you mean NOTHING to them.Fuck college. Fuck crying only pussys cry.Fuck being jeleous of other people. Fuck comparing myself to other people. Fuck this vacation. Fuck being drunk. Fuck exercising. Fuck high school drama. I really don't care anymore at all. Fuck it all. Fucking shit piss whore FUCK. I don't want anyones sympathy or attention any of it. I just want this. This journal entry where I let everything out and no one say a word about it. No one saying so Trisha saw ur journal entry whats that all about.
I don't care and you may think wow Trishas an unhappy person or wtf is this chicks problem or man this chick needs help. Go ahead think all you want I don't care. Im done caring. Caring is what seems to get me in this fucking mess in the goddamn first place. I care way to much about other people way to fucking much. Im done. I'm sick of being unhappy and I'm sick of letting every little thing get to me. I'm sick of being someone everyone expects me to be. I'm sick of getting walked all over. and thats how I feel lately. Just a floor matt for fucking people to walk all over. But thats my fault right of course it is. When is anything I do not my fucking fault.
I don't think id ever say this but I'm glad for school to start again I really am. I need it to keep me busy even tho it doesnt because I never get any homework.
Only one good thing about today got another letter from Fitchburg State College and for once I felt special. I'm going there I've decided I don't even care what It looks like or if I end up getting into Umass dartmouth. Its the furthest away so it has my name written all over it.
ok I'm done
And here it goes.........
Fuck science fair projects serioulsy. Fuck being nice to people. Fuck people who have been acting shady towards you and when you ask they become more shady. Fuck parents. Fuck only getting two hours of sleep last night because I care way more then I should. Fuck newbury comics for not having the old Boys Night Out cd when they had it two days earlier I went there.FUCK BROKEN STEREOS. Fuck work. Fuck never having any money. Fuck guys. Fuck feeling like crap all the time. Fuck broken hearts. Fuck always getting things thrown up in your face.Fuck people who make you feel like a slut when in all actuality your not at all. Fuck people who lead you on. Fuck promises.Fuck staying in this goddamn house.Fuck being upset. Fuck people who don't care about you when you care so much about them.Fuck caring about people when you mean NOTHING to them.Fuck college. Fuck crying only pussys cry.Fuck being jeleous of other people. Fuck comparing myself to other people. Fuck this vacation. Fuck being drunk. Fuck exercising. Fuck high school drama. I really don't care anymore at all. Fuck it all. Fucking shit piss whore FUCK. I don't want anyones sympathy or attention any of it. I just want this. This journal entry where I let everything out and no one say a word about it. No one saying so Trisha saw ur journal entry whats that all about.
I don't care and you may think wow Trishas an unhappy person or wtf is this chicks problem or man this chick needs help. Go ahead think all you want I don't care. Im done caring. Caring is what seems to get me in this fucking mess in the goddamn first place. I care way to much about other people way to fucking much. Im done. I'm sick of being unhappy and I'm sick of letting every little thing get to me. I'm sick of being someone everyone expects me to be. I'm sick of getting walked all over. and thats how I feel lately. Just a floor matt for fucking people to walk all over. But thats my fault right of course it is. When is anything I do not my fucking fault.
I don't think id ever say this but I'm glad for school to start again I really am. I need it to keep me busy even tho it doesnt because I never get any homework.
Only one good thing about today got another letter from Fitchburg State College and for once I felt special. I'm going there I've decided I don't even care what It looks like or if I end up getting into Umass dartmouth. Its the furthest away so it has my name written all over it.
ok I'm done