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well i think the only words i can use to describe how life's going at the moment are "shoot me please." Everything is such a mess now. I've made everything such a mess. I'm a complete embareassment, which i;ve never been before, and that bothers me to an unbelievable extent. I can't seem to do anything right latly, and basically everything is falling apart. Teachers are the reason kids commit suicide i swear to God. If I get grilled one more time for not applying myself, I may kill someone. I am trying, and I'm trying really hard too. *sigh* thats what sucks the most is that even when I try I'm told I'm no good. No matter what, someone always ends up hurt latly. In every case myself, but i mean i get myself into these messes. I don't know why I feel I have to drag the people I care about down with me, if I was a better person, I would simply cut off ties with many people for their own good. But I'm not a very good person I suppose, and have proved it time and time again, and been reminded of it as well. I'm just so sick of being a failure. At this rate, I'm never going to get into URI which is what I've been working for the entire time... damn i need to get myself together before going back to class...