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you asked if i'm ok. I said yes. I lied. Sorry. I don't want u to worry about me, because i dont know what's wrong with me. I'm miserable. I have no reason to be. But the fact is i am. wtf is wrong with me? Why have i been like this? god damn, this is why i went to renee's last night, so i could tlak to her about this, and instead i fell asleep. Woke up at 2:00 a.m. and said shit. stayed up contemplating everything till around 5:00 a.m. then went back to sleep. I got nothing. I have no idea why I want to burst into tears right now. Well, I do to some extent, but not all of it. damn it. frickin a.. now i am crying, this fucking blows, i'm finishing this essay and going to bed, i dont even wanna be awake. Good night all.
On a lighter note i got my prom dress tonight... it's beautiful i guess, i loved it about 3 hrs ago but not even that's making me smile at the moment. i just wish i knew why... well... what else anyway... this whole thing makes no sense... then again neither do i most of the time. i so wish my life was more black and white and less technicolor.
On a lighter note i got my prom dress tonight... it's beautiful i guess, i loved it about 3 hrs ago but not even that's making me smile at the moment. i just wish i knew why... well... what else anyway... this whole thing makes no sense... then again neither do i most of the time. i so wish my life was more black and white and less technicolor.