hello again
Long time no post, I know I suck.
Some times the hardest thing to do is live with yourself, knowing the person the you were. Because wither that person was AMAZING, or the most horrible person. More than likely it's the ladder. You struggle every day knowing that you can't change the past. Having HUGE "what if" issues. You wake up one day in a haze, a smoke filled haze. only to realize that you have spent so much time worrying about something that you can't change, that life has gone on and you brain has now grinned to a halt and the smokey haze if coming from your ears... Once it clears, you started to see and understand "ok, I can't change it, keep calm and carry on and MOVE on" And you start to discover the person that you have become in the mean time, who you will become.
that's where i am right now. ...i think that is where i have been for a long time.
I have kinda gotten back into "art" I have done a few Disney character paint/color pencil pieces, and sewn a few sets of stays for the ladies in the militia. and I'm working like a mad person at my day job. ...yup.
Some times the hardest thing to do is live with yourself, knowing the person the you were. Because wither that person was AMAZING, or the most horrible person. More than likely it's the ladder. You struggle every day knowing that you can't change the past. Having HUGE "what if" issues. You wake up one day in a haze, a smoke filled haze. only to realize that you have spent so much time worrying about something that you can't change, that life has gone on and you brain has now grinned to a halt and the smokey haze if coming from your ears... Once it clears, you started to see and understand "ok, I can't change it, keep calm and carry on and MOVE on" And you start to discover the person that you have become in the mean time, who you will become.
that's where i am right now. ...i think that is where i have been for a long time.
I have kinda gotten back into "art" I have done a few Disney character paint/color pencil pieces, and sewn a few sets of stays for the ladies in the militia. and I'm working like a mad person at my day job. ...yup.