Random thoughts...
I've been sick with The Worst Cold Of The 21st Century. I'd been slowly dying all week on the couch, and then Naisa came home and took over for me yesterday.....so I promptly got in bed and slept for 22 hours. I'm starting to feel better now. I'm up and about, but my legs start shaking if I stand for more than a few minutes. Christ, I feel like I'm 90.
As Scotty's surgery looms nearer, I find that I'm having a harder time keeping my anxiety under control. I know it's not helping me to get worked up. It's certainly not going to help him. It gets me nowhere. I have a game plan, I'm doing as much as I can, and there's no use in worrying about something I can't control. Yes, I have a good therapist. But really, when it comes to anxiety, KNOWING that it doesn't help me really doesn't make it go away. Just sayin'.
So I have to buy a new car. Not a NEW car, but a new-to-me car. We have the blank check from the bank sitting here just waiting to be written. All systems are go....except I just can't make myself actually start shopping. Seriously, I'd rather tear my fingernails out than go shopping for a car. I WANT a new car, I just don't want the experience of BUYING said car. Ugh.
Tom finally got the dryer fixed. It had been broken for almost a week. Imagine what our laundry room looks like right now....considering the fact that we create two loads of dirty laundry a day.
So Naisa is set to graduate from college on the 17th. Can you believe it? She really didn't want to go thru the ceremony, but my mom guilted her into it. The only downside is that Scotty's surgery is on the 16th, so I'll be leaving him in the hospital with tom to dash off to the graduation, and then dashing back to the hospital. Ugh. But still, my kid is graduating from college. Craaaaazy.
I should probably get Tom up from his nap soon. If he sleeps for too long, he'll get a headache. Not me. I can sleep for 22 hours and just feel better! We're grilling cheesy dogs tonight.
As Scotty's surgery looms nearer, I find that I'm having a harder time keeping my anxiety under control. I know it's not helping me to get worked up. It's certainly not going to help him. It gets me nowhere. I have a game plan, I'm doing as much as I can, and there's no use in worrying about something I can't control. Yes, I have a good therapist. But really, when it comes to anxiety, KNOWING that it doesn't help me really doesn't make it go away. Just sayin'.
So I have to buy a new car. Not a NEW car, but a new-to-me car. We have the blank check from the bank sitting here just waiting to be written. All systems are go....except I just can't make myself actually start shopping. Seriously, I'd rather tear my fingernails out than go shopping for a car. I WANT a new car, I just don't want the experience of BUYING said car. Ugh.
Tom finally got the dryer fixed. It had been broken for almost a week. Imagine what our laundry room looks like right now....considering the fact that we create two loads of dirty laundry a day.
So Naisa is set to graduate from college on the 17th. Can you believe it? She really didn't want to go thru the ceremony, but my mom guilted her into it. The only downside is that Scotty's surgery is on the 16th, so I'll be leaving him in the hospital with tom to dash off to the graduation, and then dashing back to the hospital. Ugh. But still, my kid is graduating from college. Craaaaazy.
I should probably get Tom up from his nap soon. If he sleeps for too long, he'll get a headache. Not me. I can sleep for 22 hours and just feel better! We're grilling cheesy dogs tonight.