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well today was the Laguna Beach season finale and i cryed... ALOT i really liked that show ans seeim them all go off to college and leaving their freinds made me not wanna go to college and grow up so i told my mom i was gonna stay in 11th grade forever//
i really dont wanna grow up everytime i think oubt it i wanna cry! am i the only person who doees this?? i mean at times i cant wait til i get older but all in all i dont want to! ya know?
and also like on the show where they had this big group of freinds that they could always come back to ya know i feel like i dont have that, like i odnt have a group of true friends that actually like each otehrt and invite me to do stuff like all togehter i feel like i only have ppl i talk to but not friends with ya know? and most of all my friends are in college already and its not the same when they invite me to do stuff, i wanna group of friends that wil be there no matter what and that i can go out and have a good time with, see i dont have that
my friends are mostly rednecks [ hey its true] and they dont never wanna do stuff but talk bout trucks and hook and shit like that i mean dont get me worng i love that but sometime i wanna go out and have a good time ya know i love hangin with the guys but i dont know i just fell kinda lef out sometime like i am missin a big part cause no one invites me to do anything anymore
i feel really stupid saying that but it is true
i dont even know what iwanna do after college, i dont know where i am going to do , i know this... i aint goinbto be going nowhere good if my geades dont come up quickly and drastically oh man oh man bein a teenager is so hard sometimes
so many decisions you are forced to make
i hate it i hate it i hate it
and the whole guys situation i have pretty much given up on findin a decent one in winchester i know now that it is impossible to do so..
Austin and Keisha are datin again by the way - BETH
but anywho- all guys here are just not wat i would want in a relationship all " country" people here are posers and asshooles and i dont like that. and all the good ones are taken and the other ones are shorter than me, i am starting to wonder if i will ever get married :)LOL!!
but on the good hand i dont have to work til thursday w00t and fri and im off the whole weekend but bethahy wont be home so i guess il be stuck at homewto since i have no social life anymore and noone wants to hang out with me cause im a loser now oe seenthin
but im goin to go do something probebly sleep who knows peace
i really dont wanna grow up everytime i think oubt it i wanna cry! am i the only person who doees this?? i mean at times i cant wait til i get older but all in all i dont want to! ya know?
and also like on the show where they had this big group of freinds that they could always come back to ya know i feel like i dont have that, like i odnt have a group of true friends that actually like each otehrt and invite me to do stuff like all togehter i feel like i only have ppl i talk to but not friends with ya know? and most of all my friends are in college already and its not the same when they invite me to do stuff, i wanna group of friends that wil be there no matter what and that i can go out and have a good time with, see i dont have that
my friends are mostly rednecks [ hey its true] and they dont never wanna do stuff but talk bout trucks and hook and shit like that i mean dont get me worng i love that but sometime i wanna go out and have a good time ya know i love hangin with the guys but i dont know i just fell kinda lef out sometime like i am missin a big part cause no one invites me to do anything anymore
i feel really stupid saying that but it is true
i dont even know what iwanna do after college, i dont know where i am going to do , i know this... i aint goinbto be going nowhere good if my geades dont come up quickly and drastically oh man oh man bein a teenager is so hard sometimes
so many decisions you are forced to make
i hate it i hate it i hate it
and the whole guys situation i have pretty much given up on findin a decent one in winchester i know now that it is impossible to do so..
Austin and Keisha are datin again by the way - BETH
but anywho- all guys here are just not wat i would want in a relationship all " country" people here are posers and asshooles and i dont like that. and all the good ones are taken and the other ones are shorter than me, i am starting to wonder if i will ever get married :)LOL!!
but on the good hand i dont have to work til thursday w00t and fri and im off the whole weekend but bethahy wont be home so i guess il be stuck at homewto since i have no social life anymore and noone wants to hang out with me cause im a loser now oe seenthin
but im goin to go do something probebly sleep who knows peace