the sparrow of my life... lol
it seems like forever since ive updated for real. last nite was kinda frustrating... my mom didnt believe me that i actually was at the library for 2 hours. wutever mom. i guess it woulda been more believable if she knew that i met a guy there and eric was there too. me and eric had a good time passing notes and then i threw it all away! lol! poor guy :) i luv ya kos!!!
but yea so then i did break up with bright. we're better as friends... since we've been going out we have fought sooo much! it's just like every little thing he does gets on my nerves. well not everything but sum stuff. and when we were just friends we never fought and we just had a good time chilling. that's wut i want... a good christian friend, and that's wut bright is so it's all good. be both were happy about the decision to just be friends. he said that he's scared that he's going to totally lose me out of his life. i hope that doesnt happen b/c i remember wut it felt like to just be replaced in sumone's life when u had grown so accustomed to being with that person all the time. it's hard and it hurt and i wouldnt wanna do that to bright when i kno myself how terrible it feels.
tj's awesome tho. he gave me a pic of him.... he's so hott. he's so shy, it's so cute! last nite when i grabbed his hand when we were walking out to our cars he seemed totally fine but then we were talkin online later and he's like, "yea i was soo nervous when u took my hand.. .i was shaking so bad!" that may sound dumb to u guys but i think it's cute and it kinda makes it seem like it will be easy to NOT get in bad situatinos with him. im hoping for good things. no rushing tho.... we're gonna actually hang out this weekend and see how things go... im pretty confident. some of the things that he said last nite really made me smile. :) he said that the first things he noticed about me were my eyes and my smile... awwww precious. he's so funny too! he's just a goof. i wish he wasnt so shy but hopefully my outgoing-ness will rub off a tad... or a lot... or at least to some extent where he will be outgoingly affectionate wiht me. that'd be good. i told him that eventually he'd be the one grabbing my hand and he said that sounded good. im excited. he's great... did i mention he's a pastor's kid? yea but he's not the usual rebel one, he thinks that drinking is retarded and he's never done anything with a girl and i just think that's awesome. but yea... im done obsessing. lol. sweet sarah.
so tomorrow i have a HUGE pre cal test that i am SCREWED for. we got a review last ntie and omigosh i didnt even kno the first question! me and tj were sitting at the library him actually doing hw and me just sitting there staring at my book... i accomplished nothing. im goign to fail. i wanted to go hom right after school tonite and sleep but i have to study... like i NEED to! i cant fail this test. if i get a good grade i can get my grade bak up to a B+ i hate seeing my grades now. i only have 4 As!
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but yea so then i did break up with bright. we're better as friends... since we've been going out we have fought sooo much! it's just like every little thing he does gets on my nerves. well not everything but sum stuff. and when we were just friends we never fought and we just had a good time chilling. that's wut i want... a good christian friend, and that's wut bright is so it's all good. be both were happy about the decision to just be friends. he said that he's scared that he's going to totally lose me out of his life. i hope that doesnt happen b/c i remember wut it felt like to just be replaced in sumone's life when u had grown so accustomed to being with that person all the time. it's hard and it hurt and i wouldnt wanna do that to bright when i kno myself how terrible it feels.
tj's awesome tho. he gave me a pic of him.... he's so hott. he's so shy, it's so cute! last nite when i grabbed his hand when we were walking out to our cars he seemed totally fine but then we were talkin online later and he's like, "yea i was soo nervous when u took my hand.. .i was shaking so bad!" that may sound dumb to u guys but i think it's cute and it kinda makes it seem like it will be easy to NOT get in bad situatinos with him. im hoping for good things. no rushing tho.... we're gonna actually hang out this weekend and see how things go... im pretty confident. some of the things that he said last nite really made me smile. :) he said that the first things he noticed about me were my eyes and my smile... awwww precious. he's so funny too! he's just a goof. i wish he wasnt so shy but hopefully my outgoing-ness will rub off a tad... or a lot... or at least to some extent where he will be outgoingly affectionate wiht me. that'd be good. i told him that eventually he'd be the one grabbing my hand and he said that sounded good. im excited. he's great... did i mention he's a pastor's kid? yea but he's not the usual rebel one, he thinks that drinking is retarded and he's never done anything with a girl and i just think that's awesome. but yea... im done obsessing. lol. sweet sarah.
so tomorrow i have a HUGE pre cal test that i am SCREWED for. we got a review last ntie and omigosh i didnt even kno the first question! me and tj were sitting at the library him actually doing hw and me just sitting there staring at my book... i accomplished nothing. im goign to fail. i wanted to go hom right after school tonite and sleep but i have to study... like i NEED to! i cant fail this test. if i get a good grade i can get my grade bak up to a B+ i hate seeing my grades now. i only have 4 As!
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